Despite the disasters
denying the definite
dodging the truth
i still want to feel your hugs again
your lips pressed against mine
through all the neglect i received and gave
never had i thought it'd get this bad
83 days, and counting, (to
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"yes, i know that really, only i thought 'herd behaviour' and asking the old mare might help. and it has. a little."
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thought she'd just put it up for adoption, didn't she? well, he'd show her, all right, he would. he'd do right by that one. she had no say in the matter. he'd do the right thing for that little one.
the thought made him smile.
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I thought, as it was gold, that i would be able to sell it for some money and "get something good out of it".
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And with the thoughts of million things revolving around his head, he drank one more darned up useless hangover causing shot of alcohol, and fell dropped asleep onto his bed.
**2015, january 12th:**
"john! switch on your eva and move your ass!
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The red mare thought about that, nose wrinkling.
"soon, i promise you. but, until then, you'll both have the best any of us can give you. and after that too." she dipped her head. "that's the least we can do for you."
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I thought that was a good thing?
the mood of the day shifted after that, my dad using the cockles as bait and sending his line back out into the water, cockles hooked on the end, pierced through with the soft meat from the shell.
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_please, no,_ amethyst thought, sending up a prayer to any listening gods.
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I kept working and thought i'd stop feeling this way after some time. i thought that it'll get better when i just work enough. when i have no time to think about it. when i have no free time to feel alone.
but it didn't get better. i always felt it.
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Chances are, 49202 thought, that both of the boys would be early casualties.
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Regardless, i thought the journals were a pretty good idea, so i figured i should do the same, and so here we are. might be fun.
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Regardless, i thought the journals were a pretty good idea, so i figured i should do the same, and so here we are. might be fun.
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