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I slept peacefully. My mate slept with my arms around him, even if the setting was not ideal for a nap. I felt my mate stirred at first then I couldn’t felt him at all. I roused from my slumber slightly sore, but otherwise fine. A pile of towels do not make a bed. I saw Val along the wall naked staring at me. “Hey Val, what time is it?” I might need to hunt a bit if it is late otherwise I won’t sleep. Val looked red, I don’t think he is angry. Oh wait, “We have some things we need to discuss.”

I was trying to find a place to start when he blurted out “I am so sorry.”

“What? I am the one who has to apologize.” It was my fault you were in pain.

“But I did those things in the shower.” Is that what he was apologizing about?

“What things?”

“The sex.”

I just laughed at it, “You make it sound like a bad thing.”

“It is a bad thing, I raped you.”

“No you didn’t.”

“Yes I did.” He looked like a puppy throwing a temper, it was cute.

Rape is the act of having sex without the others consent. I consented even if he thinks I didn’t. I tried to speak in a calm voice, “Val, think about it, I had opportunities to leave at any point, but I stayed and continued. I didn’t struggle, I didn’t resist. Even if the kiss caught me off-guard, I still consented.”

His body language told me he was still didn’t believe me, so I tried to prove it in another way. I kissed him on the lips. He didn’t struggle with me, just accepted it. I held it as long as possible. Once long enough passed, I pulled back, “so still think I didn’t consent?”

“No, I raped you.”

“Val, what do I have to do to prove you didn’t rape me?”

“I know what I did. There would be no way a person like you would have sex with me willingly.” A person like me. What did he mean by that? Did he think he was below me?

I am going to force him to understand. I grabbed him and forced down on the floor with me on top of him. It seemed drastic, but it was the only thing I could think of. “See I am stronger then you. If I had tried to get away, I would have.” He tried to break the hold, but I didn’t want to. The more he struggled the more it seemed to dawn on him I was telling the truth. He seemed to relax more under me.

I then remember the dreams. At this point I would kiss him. The thoughts were arousing me, but I got off before he noticed my erection. “We should get dress.” There were two piles of clothes here, the other must have placed them here while we sleep. I notice the clothes that Val put on was the same I discarded before running here. My smell should still be on them, and they were covering Val in my scent. Bad dog, get your mind out of the gutter.

When we got to the bed room, Val looked worried about something. “Anything wrong?”

“I promised will to get his new game today.”

“Already taken care of,” Poram was standing at the door, “while you two danced in dreamland, I took Will to the store.” He then looked to me, “Anyway did you tell him?”

“No, not yet.”

“Just tell him, you idiot. Do you want me to tell him?”

“No, I will.” Poram closed the door, I set Valrez on the bed.

I struggled to find the words to describe what I was trying to say. Val, tired of the silence that formed, spoke, “what were you two talking about?”

I couldn’t find the words so I just answered bluntly, “Val, I am a werewolf.”

“What?”

“I am a werewolf, have been for years. So have my parents, William, even Poram”

“What are you talking about? You’re not making sense.”

“But it is true.”

“Then prove it.” Fine. I got in front of him and started to shift before his eyes. I went with my third form, the one I used when I had sex with Val one month ago.

When I finished, the look on Val’s face was horrifying. It looked like a mix of anger and sadness. I tried to comfort him, but he slapped my hand away. His emotions just flooded out of him, he lost the will to hold them back any more. I stayed the entire time he cried, even if staying was a bad idea. I wanted to comfort him, to hold him and whisper soothing words to comfort him in this moment.

When he curled in a ball and tuned away, I climbed into the bed. “I am so sorry, Valrez. I wished I could have told you earlier, I wished I could have told you in another way.” I could have all the Haves in the world, it still doesn’t change the fact I didn’t.

“Then why didn’t you?”

“I was scared. I was scared if I told you, you would hate me, fear me. I didn’t want to lose you. I wanted to tell you for so long, but I chickened out at the last minute every time.” I placed an arm around him, I was still scared to lose him. I am so sorry I didn’t tell you. If I cried now, I didn’t feel the tears run down my face.

“How would you tell me?”

“Huh?”

“If you have told me earlier, what would you have said?”

That threw me though a loop. I started off with the basics, the stuff that would be considered general knowledge among wolfs. I then went into more detailed topics. As I talked, I felt lighter. I wanted to tell him these things for so long and now was my chance for that. The mood lighted as well. The gloom and sadness from before seemed to vanish entirely. Then I felt Val’s stomach growl. It was so random I just laughed, “Well we should see if there is anything we could eat in the kitchen.”

“Aren’t you going to change back?”

“What are you talking about?”

“You still look like a wolf to me.”

I looked at myself and he was right, I was still a wolf. “Wait, you mean I told you everything and you understood me?”

“Yeah, I understood you clearly.”

This made no sense. My body should not be capable of speaking words. Other werewolves can understand each other, but not a human. Then it hit me, “the rune!”

“What?”

“The rune on us, it is translating everything I say to you.”

“What rune?” I never told him about it.

“Am I interrupting something?” Shan opened the door to the room.

“Shan, we need to talk over dinner, tell that to Steven and Poram as well.”

At the table I got them to tell Val what they had done to us. While Steven and Shan apologized immediately, Poram was more difficult.

“Just apologize” I said

“No” Poram respond

“You don’t need to do this.” Val keeps telling me.

“See, Val didn’t mind. Anyway, Val, are you and Fredrick mates now?” okay he crossed the line. I grabbed Poram and tossed him out the back door. He should stay away till we leave tomorrow.

“Anyway it is getting late you should stay here for the night Val.” He accepted.

When I was getting prepared for bed Val entered. “Hey Fredrick, can I sleep with you?”

Am I already dreaming? “What brought this all of a sudden?”

“What did Poram mean by ‘mate’?” Crap.

“It’s nothing to worry about.”

“Then you would have no trouble speaking about it.”

“Why do you want to know so badly?”

“If he placed this rune on me to be your mate, then I should know what it is.”

“Alright,” I gave up. Better he hears it from me, “a mate is like a lover. He was asking if we were a couple.” I felt a little embarrassed saying it out loud.

“So, am I your mate?”

“What? N-n-no, not really,” he looked sad, “no, I mean I never asked you to be one.” Get on with it. “Look a mate is not like a boyfriend or girlfriend thing. It is almost the equivalent to marriage. If you are my mate, I would love you and hold you till we both die.” Val looked bewildered at that statement.

I needed to tell him more. “Part of me already sees you as a mate. If you don’t want to be my mate, it may take awhile, but I could undo it. So if you don’t want to just say It.” if a person does not do anything to the wolf for a few months, he would stop seeing the person as a mate. We don’t go after people who are not interested in a relationship.

“Sorry can I ask for some time to think about it?”

“Sure, it is a lot to take in at once. It may take a few months to undo it.”

“Would graduation work?” I looked at him. “Graduation is in two months. Do you mind if I give you my answer then?”

“Sure that works perfectly. So, is that all you wanted to talk about or are you going to get in here with me?” I lifted the covers to invite Val in.

Val and I spent the night cuddling together. For the possible last time.