Poem # 20
#20 of My Poems
please don't ask,
I feel like fire races about through my body,
My nerves crackle in my mind,
Pain lances through out my form.
Even as the thunder rumbles outside,
I can feel the lightning swirling through the clouds,
It crackles and crashes,
The sound rough on my ears.
Even as I writhe in pain,
My mouth clenches and teeth grind,
I fight to focus through this trail,
This challenge given to me.
I try to adapt and feel disbelief in myself,
When i find myself growing accustomed,
Even as it grows, I find myself withstanding more pain.
It feels heavy, this knowledge that i keep to myself..
But i keep the record, Watching how the world changes,
The weight of it all on my shoulders,
The beauty, The darkness,
I see it all, as if shards of glass are in my head,
Stabbing and cutting even as i understand.
That is the curse i bear,
to see all, to sense all,
to know what lies beneath the light,
And what stands in the dark.
I can only feel love for everyone,
Even as i want to destroy it all.