Gortoz 'A Ran - Ch 84 - The five stages of acceptance...
#85 of gortoz 'a ran what happened that day there in the park really moved me... the things that anna and her father said really kept me busy... i couldn't sleep that night because of it.
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 54 - The cruellest lies...
#55 of gortoz 'a ran terry still wasn't aware of anything that was happening between nicole and me. but that didn't mean nikki and i felt comfortable for doing so...
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 51- The need for her affection...
#52 of gortoz 'a ran i was on my way home but the many red traffic-lights i encountered gave me a lot of time to think. how the fuck was i able to be so goddamn stupid? so fucking naïve? why the fuck did i had to tell her?
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 62 - A sudden change
#63 of gortoz 'a ran feeling the hot damp of steam filling the shower cabin always made me relax... made me calm down whenever i was upset about something... made me think about the things that were on my mind...
Gortoz 'A Ran - Ch 31 - Tough love...
#32 of gortoz 'a ran i figured it was best not to see terry anymore after what happened that saturday... i avoided terry in college and whenever he tried to get closer, i was very hostile against him, pretty much the way i once used to be...
Gortoz 'A Ran - Ch 29 - On the same line...
#30 of gortoz 'a ran 'so i take it that you had a really good time then...' 'yeah, it was so awesome...' 'you know, you've been seeing him for a while now but you haven't even described him to me yet.
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 64 - The breaking point
#65 of gortoz 'a ran i've always been the one for dwelling in the past. with so many questions left unanswered, i had the feeling that i had to dive into the past to find the answers i needed in order to move on in the present.
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 47 - The ignoring of my denials...
#48 of gortoz 'a ran it's strange how that one little insignificant sign of affection changed so much for me that night. but from my experience, a sign of affection is never insignificant, no matter how small that may be. especially for me...
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 60 - To ask in return...
#61 of gortoz 'a ran no matter how much i wanted to change things, they simply didn't. as the weeks passed by, things stayed the same... my one-sided relationship with nikki... the constant arguments and fights i had with meagan...
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 71 - To be strong enough...
#72 of gortoz 'a ran meagan's solution to her problem didn't seem like it would solve the matter. it created a whole new problem instead... she told her story to me in all honesty and in fair trust...
Gortoz 'A Ran - ch 66 - The little boy next door
#67 of gortoz 'a ran as the weeks passed by, blain and i were hanging out and having fun, like we always did. now that he was back, things couldn't get any better... well, apart from all the shit that was happening around me but...
Gortoz 'A Ran - Ch 85 - The point of our existence...
gortoz 'a ran...'_ tarik had a weak smile on his face the moment i looked him in the eyes... and i don't even know how to describe it but... something just felt so familiar...