What should I be - Guidance
, what do you think i should be?, i am drifting aimlessly, and i need some guidance you see, what should i be, what can i be, what can you see, for me?
(Dream Journal) I Remember
#10 of dream journal a dream where i lost my memory but recover it as i frantically look around for zack.
I Would Miss You
If you ever left me, if you ever ran to hide, i would feel alone and lost without you near. what would i do, who would i become without my guide? gone without a flicker, your light no longer there to cast away my fear.
I threw the ring away
What else could i do? it was one thing, one little thing, one big thing, and i had done the thing. yet that didn't make it all better. i closed my eyes. only briefly, but i closed them.
chapter 19: stephan & i
"um...i don't remember mine either ...also" i nodded, "oh ...sometime i have memory how i came to island...i don't like them at all."
I can't cry narritive.
Not saying i don't love how i turned out but i sometimes wish i could cry again even if it was over something small. punishment after another i slowly grown a resistance to feeling emotionally hurt that i am in a way emotionally unstable.
Every time I fall
And every single time, i keep coming back.
Song- This is who I am
This is what i feel, when i feel, how i feel, now i feel, and this is when i bleed, when i cry, how i weep... yet this is who i am, yes i am, who i am, i am, and this is who i am, yes i am, who i am, that i am...
Les Citrus, Pt. I
Les citrus (i) * * * pallor from the coming squall, that chills you to the bone; we tended the fields for fall, to bring food back home.
One Dot Below the I
The backwards spiral through every degree year and mark is not enough all words white and leaving smoking skidmarks are not enough and "i shift from third into fourth then fifth gear and take off" isn't even enough and i pull over and flash the headlights
I go crazy in a dream!
#8 of my weird and wild dreams i was chasing a chicken, why a chicken? i don't know why, but i was chasing it on loose gravel and i slipped, just barely falling on my side and i started running on all fours, and i was gaining on the chicken.
Still alive I suppose
Been a while since i checked on here, and while my blood wants me to believe that it's my fault, i have no control over family members with cancer, idiots that spread contagious diseases, and rare kidney crushing side effects.