Freedom; The escape from self-loathing.
I am one of the most self-loathing people you will ever meet. there is no object, or belief, or subculture on our green earth that i hate more than i hate myself. i do not enjoy it. i never have, and i never will.
Can't Take My Eyes Off You Ch. 13
I really did need to get over this self-loathing shit. sure, i was depressed, but that didn't mean i had to kill myself over it. i rummaged through my stuff, finding a sweatshirt and throwing it on.
Secret's We Withhold - WRITING GROUP CHALLENGE -
His self-loathing at the lies he'd told all his life, they hurt and stood in his mind like mischievous imps, jeering and yelling – or so he envisioned them. what hurt the _worst_ was the most painful of all his memories – the lies he told his beloved...
Falling
self-loathing began. how could i do this to him? how could i be the one to force him to face a death in his life? i couldn't do this!
Ocean Depths part 8
self-loathing. self-regret. these thoughts only egged him on as he scrubbed trying to wipe away the past itself. the steel wool in his hand drew blood, cutting his arm as he scrubbed, the sharp pain making him drop the wired mesh.
Just Living: Panic 1
Broken, that word echoed through his mind as the self-loathing took over for a moment, the screaming fears taking a back seat to the self-hatred that shook at his body.
Kiss of Destiny: Chapter 9
He was too busy wallowing in depression and self-loathing. "jodie, you'd have loved her... i did...er... do, but i never acted... i didn't think i should. but i was wrong..." she looked up at him, taking in the sincerity in his expression.
Believe It or Not
"so, lesson number one: no more self-loathing." "i… do not loathe myself, tamer." "really? do you want your own room, ren?"
A Heart Bound
Years of pent-up self-loathing tore free, demanding a target for their destructive energy. he eagerly used that vast supply of hate, focusing it on the one who dared stand in his way.
Orphaned Memories
Getting this pain in my chest, this feeling of self loathing and pity for something i knew i could never change. i didn't like to be this way, or spend my glorious nighttime hours moping and wallowing.
Between Winters, Part VI
Rosalee was wrecked with grief, and ashton found that he was no longer welcome in the settlement, so he took to the road again, and the following months had been a haze of drinking, fighting and self-loathing.
The Boy with the Wolf Eyes 8
That has never uttered a harsh word at a person who didn't deserve it, and also," i pulled the mirror back so he could see his entire body with my face right next to his, "i see a good soul that despite its good, gentle, and kind nature; is filled with self-loathing