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This sudden intimate interest made this whole research became far more interesting, but it was a risky job. At that point in time, due to the effect of the outbreak, an injury by a Beast Race would surely turn humans and Magi into beasts, and that was the main reason why humanoids were struggling to survive. I didn't know what to expect, seeing that there were only two of us for at least 10 miles out of the walled city. Both Mika and me started to become awkward when we looked at each other, and he was clearly embarrassed. But then, that was enough for me to release his restrains and give him some clothes to wear, which were those I bought from the clothes shop back in the city when I resupplied (with his mittens gone, Mika could eat by himself).

Normally, I needed to gain more trust for him to not leave me, but he didn't say anything. Instead, he just sat there silently, staring at me like a creep while I was cooking, and looked as if I was someone interesting. After three days of thinking and unable to sleep, I returned to his part of the trailer and said, “That surely is…awkward."

“Nah, I shouldn't have make that joke to a woman. It's inappropriate," said Mika moving towards a nearby coach, then to the door. He turned to me and said, “I need some fresh air."

“Are you going to go away?"

He smiled. “Well, I might want to, but you still have your job, so I'll humor you a bit more."

I nodded and let him get out of the trailer. Of course, like a dog that had been confined in a house for so long, Mika acted like a free dog when he walked out, but then, for the first time, he actually turned towards me and said, “You want to…talk about it?"

The whole situation turned awkward and started to become more intimate all of the sudden. I wanted to write them all into my report, but nobody would read it. Worse, they'd brand me as a heretic and could possibly burn that piece of report. Fortunately, Simon was my superior, and he eagerly talked to me about the possibility of my relationship with Mika, which started to become more and more suspicious, given how enthusiastic he was on making me in love with this anthropomorphic dog.

To be truth, I did not care less about who I would end up to, since I didn't feel that way to any Beast Races, but truth be told, this could be considered a taboo, seeing that we were supposed to preserve our race, not to submit to the dominant race. But right now, seeing how I am very enamored with Mika proved that I did not care less with society. This could be considered ironic to me since I was a law abiding citizen, and that was not the time of liberalism.

But of course, we could not hold our feelings and one night, at my fifth month, I returned to the supply center to resupply and talk to Simon privately about this problem.

“Simon…I think I cannot continue with this research."

This surprised him, to which he said, “Tell me what your problem is, Nadia."

“I just can't let Mika to become my research subject anymore. I mean, it almost half a year since we started this project, and…I couldn't believe what I would say, but…"

“Shhh…" Simon said. I was surprised and confused, but then he said, “You want to talk it on a drink?"

I didn't know what he meant, but when he got out of the depot, he said, “Walk with my pace and don't panic. There are two coated magi behind us."

I wanted to look, but Simon said, “Keep your gaze forward and into the car."

As we walked, Simon casually open the car door for me and him, and we drove off. I could see those two stopped following us, but I became suspicious. I turned to Simon and said, “Who are those people?"

“They are secret police."

“Secret police! What are they doing following us?"

“Because of my work, that is. The government didn't want us to make a research about those Beast Races that they were sentient race capable of reasoning and such, for obvious reasons. But who cares, I thought? That's why I was being monitored, including your reports, Nadia."

“My reports? But I did not explicitly say anything about my relationship with Mika!"

“You didn't but you alluded to it. I must edit out some part of it as to make it reasonable, but I could not do it if your writings slowly become more and more to glorifying Beast Races!"

“B-but…"

“I think it is a good thing you came to me tonight. This project is not known to so many other, and no one knew except for my modified reports."

When we turned on an intersection, which I knew we would return to the supply depot, he said, “Tell me, Nadia, and be honest. Do you love that dog?"

I wanted to tell him the truth, but I could not, knowing that he was marked. Yet Simon sensed my hesitation and he said, “I have friends who can protect me. They are all fighting for the cause of returning to a world where we can all live together as equal. I will be safe with them, Nadia, so tell me this: Do you love that Beast? Do you love Mika?"

“Yes…from the bottom of my heart," I said to him, finally. Simon smiled to me and let me down from his car, one block from the depot. He then said, “I have a reason to give you a whole list of agriculture knowledge, and the reason I picked you for this job. I know your dream was just and true, and I want to support you all the way I could. Now go. I'll call you after I am safe. Keep reporting, but email me to this address."

He gave me an address that was clearly different from his official one. He closed my door and quickly drove away. But then, when I returned to the supply depot, someone asked me if I saw Simon, and I said, “I just came back from his party, so I guess he had finished for the night."

Again, I wanted to know if my decision was correct, but I knew that the trailer had practically became my home after I unknowingly moved there with all of my things from my apartment. This supply would become my final supply before I was gone for good from that walled city full of hate.

After I returned, Mika was waiting for me outside, standing guard like a dog he was. He saw my frantic movement and said, “Nadia, what's wrong?"

“No time to talk. Help me couple the trailer to the truck and we'll get the hell out of this place."

I was thinking 'what the hell I am talking about? Mika never even seen a car before', but while he did not know anything and asked me about it, he understood it and we coupled the trailer to the truck and drove away. I could see the walled city, with its imposing structure, started to vanish to the distance. It was like a jail I did not want to see again, knowing that only hate came out from that place.

“Where are we going?" Mika asked. “Why are you so rushed?"

“Do you know any place away from walled cities, but still a natural place and near your kind's settlement?"

“I can take you there, but why, Nadia? Is there something wrong?"

I didn't want to talk to him about everything Simon had done to us to let us be together like this, but I knew he could sense it. I did not want Mika to feel hatred to humans or magi, and he and I had become loyal companions to each other which had become a romantic love."

“Mika, whatever happens, I will love you to the bottom of my heart," I said while grabbing his clawed hand. “Even if I become one of you, I will remember myself when I was a human, to remind me of how stupid I was. Mika, I love you, and I want to be with you."

Mika knew this was the case, and we both knew that this meant a taboo to my society and possibly to him. He licked me like a dog and said, “Are you sure about all those things, especially about turning into a beast?"

“I would never care less. If this relationship is a forbidden love, then I will be glad to be a beast so we can stay together."

We turned silent after that, with Mika occasionally gave direction to me. After a while, though, when dawn broke, we got to a cave with a lot of plants, mostly herbal and medical, around us. Mika then shouted, “Hey, shaman! I need your help!"

I knew immediately that this shaman would be someone considerate, given that Mika would trust me to go here first. The shaman was an old-looking draconian, but still stood as if he was still on his prime. His black scales made him a mysterious fellow, and many things he had would not look like as if he was with civilization often.

“I need help to find a green plain for me and this human," said Mika to him. The draconian eyed at me and said, “Human woman…I must talk to Mika privately."

I did not know what they were talking about, but in the future, Mika would tell me what he said. Mika apparently asked for a journey's supply, and he gave us some meat and provisions, and a leather bag of an apparent liquor for safe journey where he provided us with a map of the region. We quickly drove there, didn't want to make him into a liability, but not before thanking him.

After three more hours of drive, we found a hill with a river nearby where I could start a farm. Mika walked out of the car feeling the fresh air while I set on the trailer. Now, though, with us so far from any humanoid civilization, we felt truly free from the pressure of society.

But of course, now that we were so far from society, we felt relieved, with Mika especially elated that he had returned to nature and me being out of any pressure. For at least five days, we helped each other fend off anything on our way, including the nature and our own new life. The shaman's supplies were revealed to be magical beans that could grow any kind of fruits, when he explained that the shaman was once a magus who got turned into an earth dragon. That wine was apparently for our well-keeping, which I knew, at that time, as a ploy for us to be close together.

Our relationship never got any better since we got away from the pressure of society, but of course, despite of our apparent isolation, the satellite disc Simon put on the trailer was our only source of information to the humanoid world and my report to Simon. I personally did not want to continue reporting it in fear of jeopardizing our new life and especially Simon's well-being, but we managed to find a work-around of that with Simon's tweaking of his own network.

One night, though, after Mika's work at the small farm, I set up the in the trailer for a romantic dinner. Of course, Mika was surprised, but at the same time, was very happy that we decided to do this. He liked my steak, and especially that we had a wine, we could do something that could distract us from the problems at hand, right?

“So, Mika…you know that we have live together for so many months and, uh…we are so far from society now," I said to him. “So…how about if we…"

I knew Mika would not want to do this, seeing that having sex was something far more radical than we had ever though before. But then, he said, “We can talk about that later, after we eat our fill. Anyway, Nadia, how is that friend you keep sending message to?"

“Simon? He is still replying, so I guess he is still with us. Don't worry, we use elaborate codes so when that email is traced, nobody is going to know. We also did some secret code talk to make it less suspicious."

“Yes…and somehow no one even wanted to go to this place. I know this place is just some miles to a nearby settlement, and we only need minutes by car. I'm impressed myself."

“Well, I guess even after everything, we are still the one who do not care."

After we finished the whole dinner (and drinking the wine), I wanted to check on the crops or anyone who would be on the vicinity of the place. Mika did not know anyone who would find this place, seeing that one month had passed since we got away from the walled city. It was either because we were so small to their radar that they didn't care, or they gave up.

But then, our talk about sex that night became something sexual, and even serious. After some talks, we stared at each other, flirting with one another, before we proceeded to slowly strip to our undies. Seriously, this was the first time of sex for the both of us, and we felt awkward. But, after making out on the double bed I had set on what once Mika's cage we didn't care about that feeling and slowly we intimately opened all our underwear, with him opening mine and I'm teasing his loins.

We started slow, but slowly but sure, the heat of the night caused us to forget any reservations and we quickly had a very rough sex, which caused us to thrash the room unnecessarily. We were just so lucky that nothing broke and caused problem, but my god, that sex! I mean, I know he was a canine and all but that was the most satisfying night of my life.

I moaned and moaned, not concerning of anything. I felt Mika inside me, and he was also far into this he didn't care about anything. We had sex vigorously, far more than what humans would do, all through the night.

In the end, after he filled me with a load of himself, we slept together, cuddling with each other intimately, before we passed out of exhaustion.