Coalescence Book I - Chapter 16 - Blankets
Chapter 16 - Blankets
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Okay so.. I kinda liked this. I was snuggling up with a huge werewolf on my couch. It was like having a massive tiger on my couch or something. A big, wild, exotic beast that could murder me in five seconds.. but I was petting him and cuddled up, like someone would do with their dog. It was a little wild.
Despite being terrifying.. he was kinda cute. There's plenty of people that will look at a big, deadly wild animal from a distance and think it's cute. I have been known to be one of those types, but usually up close that fades back behind the danger and reality of the situation. This was technically a very dangerous beast but.. his tail wagged and when I stopped petting him he leaned in almost begging to be touched again. Fucking puppy dog eyes, somehow those fierce eyes of his could widen and give the same damn feeling.
I made a mistake flipping through channels and stopping on a werewolf movie, I had been so taken aback by the sudden ironic timing of it that I had left it on for a few moments longer than I should have.. and he had seen how we portray werewolves. It was just deeply set in people's minds what werewolves were, how they were depicted in 99% of media. Maybe some of it was true, the hunger.. the deadly teeth and claws.. but this wolf was not some mindless killing machine. After Sawyer.. I thought that he was, but he's not. Even as little time as I had spent with him so far there was far more to him than that. Could I forgive him for Sawyer? I guess I had to, didn't I?
It was instinct, he didn't know better. Now it was my turn to teach him better. Play daddy wolf. I rolled my eyes at the thought, but the way he was nuzzling up to me it didn't seem overly far from how it felt. I had to teach him.
We spent almost two hours there, it was the longest he'd been out really. I talked to him softly, nothing really important but he seemed to like when I talked to him. Eventually I told him that I needed to get up, though he seemed reluctant.
"I gotta. You just went ahead and.. went.. in the shower. But you aren't joining me for that. Lines that aren't gonna be crossed. That's final." I had to hit the bathroom, and he was not going to join me in there.
This was weird enough without him staring at my dick. He'd already seen more than enough. He let out a soft whine and tried to give me the eyes again.. nope. No. Not working. Okay it worked a little, but no.
"Go back in for now.. let me handle my business and maybe get some things done today. Then.. then you can come out for the night.. okay?"
That was it, he was into that deal. I just essentially offered up my bed to him. The wolf slid back into me.. that's a weirdly erotic sentence.
The apartment was quiet again, empty feeling. I took a quick trip to the bathroom and tried to get some housework done, cleaning up some things, getting laundry going, taking the garbage out. It was a lot easier with two hands free. I will admit I did.. kinda miss him a little. He just had such.. affection for me. It wasn't something I was used to. The affectionate touches and closeness, just the general joy he seemed to have when I spoke to him. The general joy at my company. It was so genuine.. So many people aren't, they are guarded or keep walls up. Maybe I include myself in that too, but I try to be open. It's difficult.
But it wasn't with him.
By the time I had finished with everything and grabbed a late dinner, the sun had set and I was yawning every other minute. How could my days off feel more exhausting than a work day? Heading back to my room I froze.. There was still the stain on the carpet. Blood doesn't come out easily. It was mostly gone, but to me it was a glowing beacon, a reminder. Was I going to let him stay out of me, all night, in my bed? I think I had to put some trust into him.. if I didn't we couldn't move forward.
I got ready for bed, brushing my teeth and stripping out of my clothes before climbing into the wonderful comfort and embrace of my bed. I had new sheets, the old had blood and we're all clawed up, the new sheets were a little stiffer feeling, not yet worn in but they were clean and soft and that's all I wanted. I focused and closed my eyes.
-Okay.. come on out- I didn't really put a whole lot of thought into it, but he felt it and my skin tugged and pulled as he climbed out of me.
For a brief moment it was like I was wearing a furry full body suit but he tugged away and separated himself down to the ankles.. he left his hands free for once. I was connected to him at the feet.. It felt like a strange and twisted interpretation of Peter Pan being connected to his shadow at the feet.
My wolf slid out alongside me, facing me, staring at me. He stared.. a lot. Sometimes it was creepy, but I knew he didn't mean it to be.
"Hi.." A soft greeting, and I added in a smile with it. "I'm about ready to pass out so.. hope you are tired too.."
I turned away from him, turned my back to him.. to a deadly creature whose jaws were inches from the back of my neck. Who could tear my throat out. Somehow I wasn't worried, maybe I was too tired to be worried, to think straight. He shifted and I tensed up.. he was wrapping arms around me, pressing in behind me tight. Suddenly I was entirely and overwhelmingly aware of the fact that I slept naked and he never wore clothes at all.
My body was torn between not moving at all. Don't move the slightest bit against him.. or quickly pull away, it's weird, it's so very weird. Why did I not think of this before I 'summoned' him? Why do I sleep naked? Why why why? Internally I was screaming and blushing and going through my own little overly anxious, aware crisis. He on the other hand had closed his eyes and buried his face into my neck and hair.. he was snoring? Was he fucking sleeping already? His breaths had grown deep and heavy and his eyes had closed. I guess he was more comfortable than I was.. more tired too? I was trapped.. but he was warm, and soft, like a buncha fluffy blankets and despite my awkward position I was also exhausted. He had better NOT get any morning wood, I swear to God.