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It had been a week since his birthday and Jason was still unsure about what had happened, it wasn't until a few minutes after he'd sent Cody away that the look of shame and fear on his soft face had registered in his mind. Jason sat in his bedroom with his feet up on his desk starring up at the ceiling. His mind replayed those last moments of Cody on the floor with tears streaming down his face, he was clearly very upset. The past few days after had also been kinda weird, Cody had been avoiding him all week, each and every time they crossed paths in the hall Cody would suddenly change direction. One time when Jason had went to sit next to Cody at lunch the young rabbit had gotten up and left. Every call, text and IM went unanswered, Jason felt kinda hurt that his friend was ignoring him, surely this wasn't such a big deal, and it was only a kiss after all. Had he really been that awful to Cody, did that kiss mean so much to him?

No of course he hadn't after all he wasn't the one who was weird and kissed other guys, there again it's not like the kiss had been bad. It was soft, his lips tasted kinda sweet, no what was he thinking, Cody is a guy, sure it's ok for his folks they liked one another but he didn't like Cody like that...did he?

Shrugging off his thoughts he got up and went downstairs for dinner, as he made his way into the dining room he bumped into his sister Sophie. "Hey Soph." "Hey yourself, oh hey Gladys found this when she was cleaning up after your party, must have fallen from the table of presents." Jason took the present into his paws and turned it over a few times and found a card taped below it. He took off the envelope and opened it, "It's from Cody." He set the card aside and began opening up the wrapping paper to reveal the photo album inside.

"Hey that's cute, who got you that?" Asked Arron Jason's older brother as he slipped an arm around his shoulders. Arron was only a few years older than Jason but he always looked out for his little brother none the less. In looks he was his mother's double with both red and white fur, a slender figure and bright blue eyes. Arron was in his last year of High school and like most teens his age he'd experimented a little. Well in Arron's case he'd experimented a lot and found himself to be Bisexual, he played football and some of his team were cool with Arron's between the sheet activities, some occasionally invited him over for just that reason alone. A fair few his girl and boy friends loved it too since Arron could pick out cute guys and girls respectively.

"Uhm, Cody." "Friend of yours?" "Uh...well...kinda I guess, we kinda had a falling out." "Who was it, oh...was it that cute white rabbit that left here in a hurry last week?" Jason stayed quiet and looked towards the floor as he turned the album in his paws. "What happened?" Arron asked as he pulled his little brother closer to him.

"Well we kissed..." Jason answered with a deep blush. "So?" Arron replied as he shrugged his shoulders. "Well, guys aren't supposed to kiss one another right?" Arron smiled and tilted his head to one side slightly. "Well yeah that's true if you're talking procreation but I've kissed other guys in the past, it's no big deal, wouldn't have minded a kiss from that little bunny either." "Arron!" "What, I'm just saying the guy was cute." "Yeah but you're not supposed to like him that way though." "Do you?" "No...of course not!" "Ok, no need to go all defensive with me, so what are you so worried about?" "You...you don't understand." Jason sighed and ran off back up to his room. He dropped back down into his chair and looked down at the photo album in his paws and opened it up. His frown slowly tugged into a smile as he looked through the pictures of all the fun that he and Cody had together over the past few years.

As he went through the pictures he started to notice something, in almost every picture at the start of their friendship Cody only ever had one eye on show, the other was always hidden behind his mop of ice-blue and green headfur. Then as the years went on depending on the location and the number of people, his other eye became more and more visible. The only other thing was the fact that in every picture that his eye became more visible, he was with Cody.

After hearing his mother call on him again to join them for dinner he finally got up out of his chair and went downstairs. He looked at his food and stirred it all around his plate a few times but found he couldn't bring himself to eat anything. "Is everything alright dear?" His mother asked in that silky voice of hers. "No, no I'm fine honest." Jason replied as he poked his fork at some potatoes. "Girl trouble is it?" His father asked Jason looked up before looking down the table towards his father. "Why would you think that?" "Because, I had a similar look on my face when I was wanting to ask out your mother." His father replied with a broad smile as he placed a paw upon his wife's shoulder and squeezed gently.

"Is it something at school, is someone bothering you?" His mother asked with a slight worried tone. Jason wasn't sure how to answer her honestly; it was kinda both in a way, Cody was bothering him because he wouldn't talk to him and since they only met at school then it was to do with school. Jason just shook his head figuring it was the easiest way to answer her questions. "May I please be excused; I'm not all that hungry." Jason asked as he pushed his chair back. "Alright but if you need to talk you know your father and I are always here to listen." Jason nodded and went back upstairs only to find his other sister Laura, going through the photo album.

Laura was his third older sibling, she was the younger of the three eldest but the tallest, she always jokes that he height makes up for her lack in years. Laura was blonde all over with hazel coloured eyes, she had more of a figure to her than the rest of the family but that's what everyone loved about her most, that and her bubbly personality. "Laura, what are you doing?"

"Some of these are really cute, how come I've never met this little guy?" "Mind your own business." Jason growled and made a swipe for the book, only Laura was much taller than he was and held it out of reach. " You know he looks a much better friend than all those posh snobs you hang around with." She stated as she turned another page. "What would you know about it?" Jason growled again getting more annoyed with his sister. "Well considering most of my friends are not rich snobs, since the snobs think I'm too "trashy" to hang around with them."

"Cody...Cody's not trashy." Jason protested with a meek voice and a pout upon his muzzle. "Cody huh, cute name and a cute smile." "Ugh you sound just like Arron." "Oh so Arron's seen this book too huh?" "Yeah...well...no he didn't see inside..." "Really?" Laura grinned shutting the book and tucked it under her arm before making a quick exit and rushed to Arron's room.

"Hey come back with that, it's private!" "All the more reason to share it with your siblings!" Laura bolted into Arron's room and shut the door behind her, her chest heaving as she looked over at Arron. Arron was sprawled out on his bed with headphones on and bopping away to the music when his eyes set upon his sister. "Sup sis?" "Have you seen this yet?" she asked holding the book out. "Yeah that's Jason's Birthday present from his friend the rabbit." "Have you seen what's inside though?" she asks excitedly.

"No not really." Arron replies and switches off his music getting kinda curious now.

The pair of them began flicking through pages laughing and awing at them as they went through the album. Neither had realised that Laura hadn't locked the door until they both felt someone give their tails a hard tug making both of them yelp, drop the album and turn around. "Hey!" they both called out as they took their tails from Jason and nursed them. "That's private." Jason growled as he picked up the book. "Hey we were just having a little bit of fun." Arron replied.

"Yeah, at my expense." Jason whines. Laura and Arron stood on either side of their little brother and hugged him a little. "We're sorry; we're just trying to make you feel a little better." Jason sighed softly and looked down at the ground, "There's only one person who really made me laugh and he won't talk to me."

Laura looked at her little brother and then up to her older brother totally confused. "He fell out with his little Rabbit friend." Arron explained. "Oh yeah I remember him, he's really cute, what happened?" Arron looked down at Jason who still had not looked up from the floor. "Jason?" Laura asked as she placed a paw upon his shoulder. "It's nothing honest." Jason insisted "They played seven seconds in heaven together and our little brother freaked out." Arron explained "I did not freak out!" Jason protested and pulled away from his siblings.

"Wait, let me get this right, you played seven seconds in heaven with your friends and didn't think that maybe you could end up kissing a boy?" Laura asked. "Well yeah!" Laura couldn't help herself and she chuckled a little. "Jason hun you had just as much chance of kissing a girl as you did a boy." "Yeah but you're not supposed to kiss other boys!" "It's never stopped Arron." "Yeah but Arron's...Arron."

Laura sighed leaning against Arron and folding her arms across her chest, "I dunno Jason, I just really don't see what the big deal is, so you kissed a boy, so what, I mean it's not like you liked it or anything?" She didn't mean it how it came out, she had lots of gay friends, she was just leading Jason on to see if he'd spill the beans. "Well...no...I mean it wasn't bad or anything..." Arron smirked, "So you did like it?" He teased "I didn't say that!" Jason barked "So why are you blushing?" Jason couldn't answer, his mind had flashed back to those few seconds, before the door had been opened, that sweet taste, those soft lips and that cute churring sound. "Jason!" Arron called as he shook his brother from his little day dream.

"I...I gotta go." Jason stammered and ran from Arron's room leaving his two older siblings looking at one another with new smiles on their muzzles. "You didn't need to tease him that much." Laura said as she sat on the bean bag in Arron's room. "Well I don't know about you but I actually enjoyed it, don't worry so much he'll be fine, just as soon as he apologises and confesses his feelings."

"To who?" "The bunny of course." "You really think Jason likes him that way?" "Hey you saw the way he blushed and the way he ran out of here, if I could I'd bet money on it."

Jason slammed his bedroom door shut and panted as he leaned back against the door. Both his heart and his mind were racing and his cheeks burned with his blush. Did he really like Cody that way, did this mean he was some kind of sick pervert? Jason yawned and whimpered and put himself to bed and sobbed quietly into his pillow.

The next morning he passed Cody in the corridor talking to Hamish the black and white Clydesdale, Hamish was one of the star players for their school's football team. Jason couldn't help but feel a little down as he watched the pair walk past, especially since Hamish had his arm around Cody's shoulders. Jason sighed and felt his tail tuck between his legs and tried not to look, Cody looked really happy in Hamish's company but if Cody was making new friends how would he be able to apologise?

Jason was so lost in thought that he didn't notice someone walk up beside him and start accessing their own locker. "Hi Jason." Jason snapped out of his daze and turned to look at Mary a female Leopard from his Biology classes. "Oh uhm hey." "How's it going?" "Yeah could be better I guess." "Oh, how come?" Mary asked "Never mind it's not important, listen, you doing anything tonight?" Jason asked nervously "Are you asking me out?" Mary asked with a slight blush.

"Well I mean, if you've got plans or something..." Jason stammerd "How about milkshakes after school, meet you here at three?" Mary suggested with a smile. "Yeah sounds great."

When Jason was stood at his locker waiting for Mary he spotted Cody again as he was walking past. "Cody!" The young bunny stopped and looked back over his shoulder before eventually turning around. "Oh hey, what do you want?" "I uhm...that is....how are you?" "I'm fine thank you." Cody replied, he wasn't too worried about being a little short with Jason since Jason had really hurt him a few weeks ago. "Good...good...uh listen..." "Hey cutie, you good to go?" Cody smiled and Jason looked back and noticed Hamish striding towards them before putting his arm back around Cody's shoulders. "You ready to go?" He asked as he gently squeezed Cody's shoulder. "Sure, see you around Jason."

Jason watched the bunny leaving with the Clydesdale and couldn't help but growl with jealousy. When he turned around he came face to face with Mary, "Hey Jason, you ready, uhm are you ok?" "Yeah, I'm fine why?" "You just look a little upset is all." She answered a little concerned. "No it's nothing, so which place we going to?" "How about Charlie's?" "Yeah sounds good to me."

Mary linked arms with Jason and she walked down the road with him towards Charlie's milkshake bar. They both ordered something to drink and began talking about school and stuff that they both liked, such as music, movies and so on but Mary couldn't help but think that Jason was distracted. "Penny for your thoughts?" She asked as she caught Jason starring out of the window again. "Huh?" "You ok, you don't seem like yourself." Mary stated "No, it's nothing really." "Oh, is it cuz you kissed that bunny, you worried about what people think?"

Jason thought about it for a moment and started to shake his head but then stopped and thought about it some more. "Aww, well don't worry about it, I can help you out there." Mary said with a smile and she placed her paws on Jason's cheeks and slowly pulled his head closer to hers. Their lips joined above their milkshakes, Mary's kiss was soft and it was nice but there was something missing. "What's wrong?" She asked when they parted once more. "I didn't feel anything, it's not how it was last time, maybe you're not doing it right?" Jason replied. Mary's fur bristled in annoyance. "Uhm I've kissed many more people than you have Jason, I don't think it's anything to do with me." "Yeah but...when I kissed Cody I..." "I think you have your answer, you're a freak just like he is!" Mary yelled as she grabbed her coat and bolted from the bar.

Jason felt his cheeks burn and all eyes on him as he picked up his own coat and slowly slipped out into the street.

The next day no one had seen Jason the whole day apart from during meals which he picked up from the table and took back upstairs. "Arron go and see what your brother is up to and get him to come downstairs for more than five minutes." His dad called out from within his little office. "Sure thing dad." Arron called back as he climbed the stairs,

When he got to Jason's room he knocked but didn't get a reply, he turned the door handle and looked inside and saw Jason sat in front of his computer with the lights out and a strew of papers all around him with only the sound of the printer and tower making any real noise.

Arron slowly approached Jason who had his head down scribbling something on a scrap of paper. Arron picked up one of the sheets of paper around Jason's feet and read through it and his jaw dropped. He then peered over Jason's shoulder and looked at the name of the website. "Pray me straight." Arron's blood ran cold and he scrunched up the sheet of paper before crushing it his fist which he then smashed down into the desk Jason was working at.

"What the hell is this?" "They can fix me; I don't have to be a freak like you or Cody." Jason replied without taking the seriousness of his brother's tone into consideration. "Fix you, freak, so is that what you think of me huh, do you think I'm some kind of sick freak?" Arron growled. "No you're just a mild sinner not that you'll get into heaven of course." Arron snapped and grabbed him by the front of his shirt before punching him clean across the muzzle. Jason whined and scooted away from his older brother as he gathered up all of the printed paper and began stuffing it angrily into a bin. "This is some of the biggest load of horse shit I've ever read in my entire life." "But...but the bible says." "Screw the bible, dude the bible also says that Canus walked on water and that god turned a female to salt, it also says you shouldn't eat prawns or crab well there goes half the population already. It says you shouldn't work on a Sunday, there goes about another third." Arron was fuming with rage, not directly at his little brother, after all it wasn't his fault, he was more mad at the guys who make these websites and tricked young teens into thinking there was something wrong with them.

Arron sighed and took a moment to clear his head before he held out a paw to his little brother. Jason held back for a moment or two but eventually allowed his older brother to help him to his feet and the pair sat down upon his bed. "Look, there's nothing wrong with you ok, there's nothing there to fix, as for god and the bible, I really don't think god cares too much about who we love, just so long as we love someone."

"But Arron, I don't want to be a freak." "Hey less of the freak there, ok, Ok in your eyes I might only be half a freak but half is more than enough. Look there's nothing wrong with liking other guys alright. You even said yourself that the kiss you and Cody shared wasn't bad."

"yeah I guess." "Well let me put it to you this way, what was the only reason you stopped kissing Cody?"

Jason thought for a moment. "When they opened the door and I saw it was Cody." "Ok so up until then you had no idea you were kissing another boy?" "Well I guess the lack of breasts should have been a bit of a give-away and the smell of guys deodorant and not perfume." "So I'd be pretty safe in saying that you had an idea that you weren't kissing a girl and that until the others saw you, you would have kept kissing them?"

Jason opened his mouth to answer but as he did another cog in his mind began to turn. Arron was making perfect sense, if the others hadn't opened the door he would have kept kissing that person and he did kinda figure it wasn't a girl. "You need to accept it Jason, you like Cody and you've hurt him, you've hurt him deep and you need to apologise."

"I've tried already but he doesn't want to listen to me." Jason pouted. "Do you blame him? Arron asked with a tilt of his head. "Dude you effectively made him a social outcast in the space of ten seconds." "Yeah well...he's too busy with Hamish these days anyways." Jason retorted. "Wait...Hamish, as in Big Hamish?" Jason nodded.