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Chapter 6

Sora: Grief

I woke up to the sound of the fan rotating around my room and my noisy Mother in the kitchen. I slowly dragged my body out from under my covers like an awaken zombie. I rub my eyes while stretching and a sleepy yawn escaped my mouth. I walked over to my bathroom and hopped in the shower. As the water seeped into my fur I suddenly felt an ominous premonition. My body started to ache and it felt like I was dying. I stumbled out of the shower with my hand over my head. Things seemed to be spinning all around me and finally I looked into the mirror. I saw horror starring me back in the eyes. My upper left eye was bruised as if someone had punched me and my lower body had bruises and cuts all over it. I shook my head trying to remove such a soul piercing image. When I looked back into the mirror the morbid image was gone. I staggered backwards feeling for something to latch on to. When I found something to grasp to one name came to mind....Kaleb. I dried my fur up and threw on some clothes. I couldn't help to me so scared and worried. I rushed out the door with my Mother calling for me in the background. I had no idea where I was going but I had to find Kaleb. I had so many thoughts dancing around in my head. Where is Kaleb? Why do I even care about him? Is he okay? Why am I so worried I hate him, right? I was running down the street heading for the school. I was hoping that I could find him somewhere. I was only a couple blocks down before I noticed cop cars and an ambulance crowded by a house. I immediately took off down that road hoping that l was okay. It felt like I was running away from the truth or all feeling I had before. Everything that happened with Kaleb previously didn't matter; all that did matter was his safety. I soon approached the scene with Kaleb all bruised up on a stretcher. He had an oxygen mask on and with cuts and bruises all over his body like I saw in the mirror. I tried to reach the stretcher but they locked Kaleb in the ambulance. As the vehicle was leaving the house I stared aimlessly, wishing that I could take back all the problems between me and him. In fact his accusation of me being gay was true. He brought up the problem I had to help me face it. His words spoke more into me than I would have by myself. I'm comfortable in my own shoes now, and I definitely not afraid to admit it.

I glance back at the house to see two cops forcing a muscular husky into their car. I wandered upon the scene to see what was going on, only to be interrupted by another cop.

"Son, I need you to stay back. That man there is very dangerous." The cop was a stern turtle, with eyes that resembled long years of work. He seemed very concerned; could that husky be responsible for the wounds on Kaleb? I took a sharp glance at the husky. He was furious with screaming and causing. He took wild swings at the cops, trying to get them to move away so he can make an escape. I looked back at the cop who stopped me.

"Um, what happened here? The kid who was taken away to the hospital was my friend."

"Oh! Well, you see that husky over there?"

"Yeah."

"Well he is the young man's father. The husky was intoxicated and when we arrived here at the scene, we found the boy on the ground with his father kicking him violently in the stomach."

"Oh my fur! Where is his mother?" Where could his mother be? Did she leave to go do something? Does Kaleb even have a mother?

"Well we received a call from her a little bit ago because she was concerned about her son's safety."

"Ok, um? Thank you so much!"

"No problem and I'm sorry about your friend."

"It's...okay." I started to walk away. There was so much I wanted to tell him. I'm sorry for yelling at you, I want to be your best friend, let's hang out sometime, or...I love you. I can't believe that I'm actually admitting this to myself, I love Kaleb.

I sped up, walking turning into jogging which evolved into running. I ran so fast my lungs felt like they were in the very pits if hell. To add variables to the equation I started to cry. The tears just came naturally; they fell from my eyes gently even though I was running. I was so afraid of the thought of losing Kaleb. I've only known him for a couple weeks and I became so attached, though I didn't talk to him much.

As I reached the drive way of my house it started to rain. It was though the sky was crying with me. I stopped as I was about to enter my house. I stood there for a moment or two before I looked up into the cold-ash grey sky. I looked deep into the sky hoping that I would be eternally revived from this situation. I kept standing hoping that something would happen, my breathing became faster and harder. I couldn't take it any longer a deep sorrowful scream escaped my mouth. It sounded like someone had their leg ripped from their body. I quickly snapped back into reality and rushed through the door and called for my mother.

"Mom! Mom!! Moooom!" She came rushing from around the corner quickly scurrying up to me.

"What? What's wrong?" She patted all over my face to find any bumps or bruises. "Honey what's the matter? Why are you crying?" I tried to wipe my tears away but they were still coming.

"I need you to take me to the hospital. My friend Kaleb is in there right now."

"Who's Kaleb?"

"Mom, will you please just take me?"

"Sure, sure okay." We got into the car and we left. As simple as the car ride should have been, I was stuck crying while my Mom kept asking me questions. "Will you please tell me who Kaleb is!"

"He is a close friend Mom."

"Then why haven't I heard about him before?" I looked away embarrassed. If I told her why she hasn't met him yet then I would have to tell her the whole story. This includes the part where I come out to her and tell her I have a crush on Kaleb. This is damn well not going to happen anytime soon.

"Sora? Is Kaleb...ya'know your boyfriend?" I looked directly at her. How did she know about me? Is it that obvious?

"M-mom!" As quickly as I turned toward her I turned my head right back at the window. I began to tell her the story of events leading up to the present. I told her about meeting Kaleb, about my confusion on my sexuality, about how he helped me realize who I am, about our fight, about how I feel now, and finally why I'm so scared. There was an awkward silence as we reached the hospital, but I didn't care because as soon as she stopped the car I busted out of the car running straight in the hospital. I ran up to the counter where a lady just looked at me with a blank face.

"Can I help you sir?"

"Y-yeah what room is Kaleb in?"

"Kaleb who? Sonny I need a last name." I didn't know his last name and this was my only chance to see him.

"I don't know his last name Ma'am but could you just look up the name Kaleb?"

"Well sure but without a last name I don't know whose room to send you to." She started to type some information in and within seconds she looked surprised. "Well it appears there is only one Kaleb in the building." She wrote down some information on a sticky note and handed it to me. "You can go just use the elevator over there." She pointed to the left where there was an elevator just waiting for me. As I approached the elevator my mom came in and I waved to her to come over. She caught up to me and started ranting on about how I shouldn't just charge out into a parking lot. In the elevator all I could think of was how I couldn't wait to see Kaleb. I took a look at the sticky note. Room 304, 4th floor. The elevator opened up and I slid out the door with my Mother calling after me. The hallways seemed like an eternal maze with Kaleb's room at the end. I was exhausted from running around all day so I decided to take a break by a wall. I grabbed the wall and put my head down to catch my breath. I looked up and saw the magical number. Room 304. I was trembling with fright and glee. I grasped the door handle and walked in to see Kaleb starring out the window. He turned his head and smiled.