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August White

Sitting by myself, I kept my head low as I walked through the crowd trying to steer clear of people. I clutched my books closely to my side as if they were my life, trying to take up the least amount of space - avoiding bumping into anyone. My tail bristled as the cold winter breeze blossomed with life in the large town of Felkings.

In the corner of my eye, like a pack of wild animals, I could see the gangs and cliques of Elkins high. The goths with their dark make up and black clothing, the artists with paint stains all over their white sleeves, the drama kids with scrips in their hands, the pretty girls wearing the latest fads and make up, the swaggy boys & girls with their hats backwards and pants sagging, the nerds with their calculators and rules, and finally, the jocks with their red and white team jackets.

But where did I fit in at this school? How could I not fit in at this school? Elkins High was a high school known for it's diversity, every turn I took everyone was hanging out with each other. You'd never see anyone alone - except myself, August White. Don't let my last name fool you, I don't have white fur - realistically, I have black fur. Both my Ma and Pa have white fur, but I don't. Every now and then, people would ask me why I have black fur if my last name was White. It wasn't that big of a deal for me, I would just shrug it off when ever someone asked me that. I stood at a good height of 5'8, and had crimson-red eyes. Most people say I look creepy because I was a wolf with black fur and red "bloody" eyes. Though no matter what most people said, I loved my look, and in all honesty my eyes don't stand out that much.

But who else would like my look? I didn't fit in any where at this school. I wasn't really cool like the jocks, or "dark" like the goth kids. Every now and then I'd think I'm one of the nerds, but their vast intelligence surpassed mine by far. Every day I roamed the halls of the schools I looked like a lost puppy, unsure of where I belonged. So the only approach I took was sticking to myself, isolating myself from the society I had to live in.

As I manuevered through the crowd, I tried my best to keep my distance toward any other fur. I didn't like being touched, I just wanted to feel like a ghost. I just wanted to walk through the crowd with my eyes closed, I didn't want to look at anyone and I didn't want anyone to look at me. I wished that I really was a ghost, no matter how hard I try to shrug it off, people are always talking about me. But why? Lost in my thought, I felt a harsh bump and almost dropped my books. I noticed it was a large familiar Wolf but I quickly walked past by them, clinging onto my books like dear life. I heard the large wolf shout "Watch it nerd!". I looked back at who the figure and saw who it was. A wave of shock and fear overcame me as I looked at him.

Why, out of all people, just why? As we both stared at each other from a far distance, I swore I could have seen a glisten of guilt in his eyes. But I quickly turned my head back and ran out of sight; I don't want to take any chances. But what did I ever do to deserve this? If this wasn't bad enough, last week, someone sent out a rumor over furbook that I was in love with Ryan Heart. Now everyone's talking about it!

But honestly I was, I mean who wouldn't be? Ryan Heart was a large wolf and the start footballer player at Elkins high, he was praised by the whole town of Felkins for bringing the school team to the finals - and they won! No matter how isolated I made myself, people would still have the nerve to talk about me. But that's not the only thing they'd talk about, they'd talk about how weird I am, or how much of a smart ass I was. Those remarks made me really angry, but this rumor, has reached it's limit. Now that some idiot said I loved Ryan Heart, I have people looking at me every where I go.

I could hear the snickers of the pretty girls as I walked by them, I did my best to ignore them, but I had to deal with it. I clenched my paws and ran towards the fountain. Sitting on the edge of the fountain, my foot paws stuck in the cold, icy water of the stream. And for the thousandth time, I tried reasoning out why I had these problems. I wished I lived a normal life, a life where I could just be who I am. I cried night after night hoping something good would happen. But overtime I learned crying won't change a thing. Because this world isn't kind to anyone.

Though I chose to be alone, being alone is the hardest thing to go through. I just wanted to find someone like me, out of the 2500 kids attending Elkins high, there had to be 1 person who was gay, too. But there was probably no way I was right. I try to find people like me, through the crowds and cliques, but I can't see them any where. I just want somebody to talk to. But they're hiding just like me, under the books or make up, under the scripts and footballs, they're hiding just like me. They're doing their best to fit in, anything to keep from being teased or hurt; being left out; being exiled.

As I stared down at the water the bell rang for first class and everyone ran towards their classes like a stampede. I could hear the footsteps of 2500 kids scattering throughout the school, it almost sounded like an earthquake was occurring. It was impossible to get past the scurrying crowd without being torn to pieces. I didn't know a lot of things about getting past crowds safely. But I did know one thing.

I was going to be late.

I'm late. Of course I'm late, I'm the kind of person that gets bad luck every single day. Sometimes I feel like the universe thinks "I wonder who we'll pick on today!" And every single day the same conspicuous name comes up, me - August White.

"You're late, Mr. White." Mr. Loaf says tapping his foot paw impatiently as I enter the room. I mutter an excuse and take my seat in the back. As I get to my seat, I step over the foot paws trying to trip me. This has become a reflex now since it happens so often. As soon as I take my seat, I feel a wad of paper hit my face and roll onto my desk. I open it up and it says "FAG" blatantly written in dark ink red pen. I crumble the paper tightly and throw it behind me. The good thing about the back is that no one else is near me, which means I have this place all to my self.

But I get used to it since it happens so often. But that doesn't mean I don't get annoyed when it happens. I don't want to come into a room with a mean-spirited paper blatantly sitting on my desk every morning just so they can hurt me.

As Mr. Loaf went on with is lecture, a short female cheetah walked in and handed him a paper. He examined the paper and looked straight at me. "Mr. White, please grab your belongings and come up here." Everyone looked straight at me, murmuring about me. I gulped and grabbed my stuff and walked towards Mr. Loaf. He gave me the sheet of paper and I looked at it. It was a schedule change.

"It has been a fun while, Mr. White. I'll see you around the halls." Everyone looked at me in confusion. I looked over the classroom and thought I'm never going to deal with these people again. All my classes just got switched except 2 or 3. For the first time in my life I felt happy, I didn't have to deal with this shit ever again every day. I walked out the class room enthusiastically and went to my new classroom.

I stood in front of the classroom i was assigned to. "Room 865, Biology Honors, Mrs. Krane." I looked at the door and thought in my mind this was going to be a new start. I could finally start over and hopefully make every day better.

I took a deep breath and walked into the classroom. And just when I thought things were going to be better today, I saw a large figure in the back. I froze in place.

"Welcome to our class, Mr White. Please take a seat near the back." She said pointing towards the figure in the back. I heard people murmur about the rumor that was spread about me and heard them snicker.

Who ever made the saying Everyone is equal obviously hasn't met the real world. Things were already as bad as they seemed. But obviously it wasn't enough and the universe took it up a notch. Hell was just beginning and I wasn't ready to brace myself.

But above all that, I had to sit next to him. but why is he here? Why universe why?

_ It just had to be him.. _

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