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As Eric waited for his sister's last class to finish he could hear Carla's words echoing in his mind.

"I don't want to see you again Eric. Don't call me, don't email me, don't try and contact me whatsoever! You can go fuck every single girl you want! I don't give a shit about what you do now!"

It took him every last bit of his willpower to prevent himself from bursting into tears. He had to remain stoic, remain stoic so as to not lose face to everyone he knew. He waved his sister over before taking off, forcing her to run after him to keep up. He stared ahead at nothing in particular as the conflicting thoughts in his head waged a battle with each other. When he got home he took off his shoes, dumped his bag at the dining room and placed his head on the table. He covered his head with his paws and let out an unhappy sigh.

"Eric is something wrong?" asked the soft voice of his mother as he felt a paw being placed on his shoulder.

"No," Eric flatly answered, trying to avoid showing the turmoil his mind was facing.

"Eric... if there is something troubling you remember I will always be here to help," she said before going off to do something around the house. She knew that something was wrong but she wanted to see whether or not her son would have the initiative to go ahead and tell her.

Hours passed as Eric sat at the table, fighting a losing battle with his mind as the impact of losing Carla sank in. The battle that raged soon caved in to his emotions as he soon ran up the stairs to his room. He slammed his door and locked it before lying on his bed, quietly crying into his pillow. His willpower had lost and because of that his mindset plummeted to its lowest ever. He had never thought of suicide before but the thought started to linger in his head. It seemed like such a good idea right now.

"God fucking damnit!" he thought, "Why did I have to do something so fucking stupid!"

His mind trailed back to all the sex that they had together. All of it would never happen again. All the time that had spent together... all wasted, thrown out in the proverbial trash pile that he deemed love. He knocked the portrait of the both of them off his bedside table. He didn't want to be reminded of her or any other girl at the moment.

A few hours later he heard someone knock on his door before he saw the lock being opened with a key.

"Eric? It's time for..." his father started. Eric wasn't in the mood for anyone to talk to him.

"GET OUT! GET OUT AND LEAVE ME ALONE!" he yelled as he threw his pillow at his father, who promptly shut the door at his sudden outburst.

Back downstairs Eric's shocked father just sat dumbly as the rest of the family sat down to dinner.

"I thought I asked you to get Eric to come down to dinner," Eric's mother said.

"I wouldn't disturb him at the moment," Eric's father replied, "He's a bit... touchy at the moment,"

"What do you mean?"

"Well he just threw a pillow at me in his fit or rage. Would have hit me pretty hard with it as well,"

Alice just looked at both of her parents curiously as they debated whether or not it was wise to make her brother come down to dinner. They didn't notice her sneak off and head upstairs.

The young thirteen year old Alice wasn't sure what was causing her brother to shut himself up in his room but she was going to find out. She loved her brother a lot but didn't let on about how much she cared about him. She was afraid about how her brother would react if she told him. She carefully inched the door open and slipped in. The room was quickly darkening but Alice knew better than to turn on the light. She knew that Eric liked the darkness.

"Just one of the strange perks about my brother that I can't explain," she thought to herself as she looked around. She noted the pillow near the door, which she presumed was the same one that her father had almost gotten hit by earlier. Her brother had hidden himself underneath his bed sheets and she could hear the sound of faint sobbing from where she was standing. She padded over to Eric's computer chair and sat down in it. Eric peeked out from under his bed covers but didn't hide himself away immediately. He could use someone to talk to.

"Eric? Can I talk to you?" Alice asked hesitantly. Eric wiped a tear away with the bed cover before answering.

"Yeah I guess..."

"What's going on? Mom and dad are worried about you," she whispered. Eric looked at the door before turning his gaze back to his sister.

"I'll tell you but you have to keep it a secret from mom and dad. I don't want them helping me out on this one," he told her. Alice nodded, acknowledging her brother's strange but rational request. Eric removed some of the sheets that he had wrapped around himself and started to explain.

"At the start of this year there was this girl I had never seen before. Laura she is called and she was one nasty kitsune. Having been caught out by the principle because of not paying attention to what he was saying I was forced to show her and her father around the school. I didn't want to do that because that was Commissioner Vasili's daughter. After he had to leave on some business he left me with that damned kitsune. She forced me into submission and uh... well... she forced herself onto me. Carla found out and she left me,"

Alice listened with interest and her expression changed constantly as Eric told her the predicament that he was in. Strangely enough she could sympathise with him as one of her own friends had something similar happen done to her. It was almost as if that it had happened for a reason.

"Eric... I... I don't know what to say. I know that you didn't mean to do that. You're just not that kind of person. This sounds pretty serious and I highly doubt mom or dad would believe you even if you did tell them," she answered as she went over to where Eric lay. He shuffled over a bit to give her a little more room as she lay down beside him.

"I may not know what to do but I'll help you out wherever I can," she whispered.

"Thanks sis. I knew I could trust you," he replied as he gave her a hug. Although he knew that he should have let go shortly after he didn't do it straight away. He was drawing comfort from how close his sister was to him. Not that she was complaining. She liked being close to her brother like this. She gave her brother a lick on his cheek before the both of them snuggled against each other and fell asleep together.

"They look so sweet together don't they?" Eric's mother asked.

"Indeed they do. They're growing up but they still seem to love each other a lot. We had better let them sleep. I am sure that they don't want to be disturbed," Eric's father replied as he walked off to finish some work he had brought home with him.

Alice was the first to rouse from her slumber and as she looked at her brother lovingly. There was something about him that she just found... intriguing. She gently ran a paw through his headfur, smoothing out as much of it as possible. He groaned softly as he turned to sleep on his back. Alice stretched herself as she got up. She stood only a few centimetres shorter then Eric did and that usually led to a few disputes as to who controlled the remote control when it came to the television. She gave her brother a kiss on the cheek before quietly padding to her room. She would need to consult her friends for advice.

By Monday Eric had calmed himself down a bit. His eyes were still bloodshot red from all the crying he had done over the weekend and his ego was still rock bottom. His free time during school was spent in the library, where he read book after book of relationship advice. His music playlist had changed dramatically with one of his favourite songs now being 'How to Save a Life' by 'The Fray'. He isolated himself from everyone he knew, sitting as far away from them as he could. Anger was building inside of him though. Spite aimed at Alex for betraying him like that. He could have just gone and not say anything to Carla but did he? No! He had to go and blab about what he saw.

"Eric... I... I know what I did was wrong but surely you could see what you were doing was wrong," Alex tried to explain when he finally caught up with the wolf. Eric just turned, his eyes blazing with rage. Alex took a few steps back out of fear. Never had he seen Eric look so fearsome before. As much as he hated to admit it he was now scared at what Eric would do to him.

"Don't you fucking think I know what I did was wrong!? It doesn't taking a motherfucking genius to discover that you retard! If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be in this mess in the first fucking place!" Eric bellowed as he backed Alex into a corner. Alex knew that he would be getting nowhere at this rate. He shoved the wolf back violently so he could make a point.

"Oh really? Who was the one cheating in your relationship? Don't you dare say that what I did was wrong! It was your bloody fault that you let that girl take advantage of you like that!" Alex retorted. That last statement pushed Eric over the edge. His eyes burned with a blinding rage as he dropped his school bag on the ground and spear tackled the fox. A volley of blows was sent Alex's way as Eric intended on punishing the fox for his transgression. Alex did his best to defend himself from the onslaught that Eric was inflicting on him, hoping that a teacher would intervene before too much damage was done. His wish came partly true as one of the sports teachers came and managed to wrench Eric free of the fox. The grip of Mr. Oliver was much stronger than Eric had first anticipated as he felt himself getting pulled free. He snarled in anger and he tried to break out of the adult's grip. Seeing Alex get up off the floor gave him a burst of extra strength and he managed to break free if the teacher's grip, eager to rejoin the fight but he was held back by the sturdy teacher.

"Eric calm down!" Mr. Oliver commanded as he shoved the angry wolf back, "I thought the two of you were friends!"

Eric didn't try to barge his way back through him to get back to Alex but instead grabbed his bag angrily.

"Friend!? Friend?! Alex is no fucking friend! As far as I care I HAVE NO FRIENDS!" he bellowed before storming off, never to be seen for the rest of the day.

"Fucking Alex and his fucking morals. He can go rot in Hell for all I fucking care," Eric muttered to himself as he sat in his computer chair. He booted up Crysis on his computer and loaded the most recent save game. He needed something to help relieve his anger and frustration. Although maybe killing Koreans in game probably wasn't the best way to vent one's anger it was the only thing he could think of at the moment. His homework could wait until later. He was so busy playing that he didn't even notice his parents calling up for him to come down to dinner. Once again it was his sister that came up and requested that he come down.

"Why are you being so kind to me all of a sudden?" Eric asked her after dinner. Alice shifted uncomfortably from one foot to another. She had been taken by surprise by that question and wasn't exactly sure how to answer.

"Eric I... I don't quite know how to say this but... well let's just say that your mood affects mine as well," Alice replied as she looked out the window, "I look up to you Eric and I love you more than I want to admit. I hope you understand,"

Eric turned off his computer as he walked over to his sister. He wrapped his arms around her tummy as he looked out of the window with her.

"I think I do," he whispered as he hugged her tighter then ever before.

Back at school the following day Eric skirted every single place that reminded him of his previous friends. All of them brought back painful memories, one after the other. From the very first day where he met Alex and Chris to the day that he had agreed to go to Adventure World with everyone else, all of it was gone forever. He couldn't bring himself to just get on with his life. He had depended too much on their support and now he was suffering because he didn't have it. As he walked through the school during lunch time he managed to catch sight of Chris. The fox was carrying a camera of some sort and it puzzled Eric.

"What on Earth is he doing?" Eric asked himself as he saw Chris get up from his crouch and run off as quickly and quietly as possible before leaning against a wall. Eric approached Chris, trying to be as stealthy as he was. Chris let out a screech of surprise as Eric placed a paw on his shoulder and he almost dropped the camera he was carrying because of it.

"Eric piss off! I'm doing something very important at the moment. This could make or break my chances of getting evidence!" Chris hissed as he poked his head out from behind the wall.

"Evidence for what?" Eric asked as the fox poked his head out again but this time it carried a look of agitation.

"Great thanks a lot Eric! I've lost them because of you! I hope you're fucking happy!" Chris muttered as he walked off in a huff, leaving a rather puzzled Eric behind.

"This is bloody perfect!" Eric thought bitterly to himself, "Now Chris wants to kill me now as well. Is there nobody who hates me?"

He leaned back in his chair as he stared at the ceiling inside of his room. He had always thought that Chris was on his side but now could he even say that? He had soon come to the conclusion that friends are little more than future enemies. He slammed his fist on his computer table out of frustration as he tried to think of some way to become friends again with Alex, Chris and Carla.

"Eric? Can I come in?"

Eric swung the chair around to face the door, he saw his sister poke her head in before

swing his chair back.

"Yeah sure... I guess," Eric replied as he ran a paw through his hair. It took him a few seconds to realize that she was still wearing her school uniform.

"Hmmm... I wonder if she...,"

Eric cursed himself as the dirty thought about his sister formed in his mind. Sure she looked sexy in that uniform but that was no reason to think about doing 'things' with her. A slight blush made itself apparent on Eric's cheeks as he averted his eyes to the floor. Alice just looked at him curiously as she pulled up another chair and sat next to him. She took one of his paws and patted it gently, drawing a shiver from Eric.

"Something else is wrong... what is it?" she asked him. Eric stared at her with a look of apprehension. He couldn't return her kind, caring look though and it pained him to share his problem with her. It was his problem, not hers. He didn't feel right to burden her with it.

"I've gone and lost my friendship with Chris. That marks the official end of all of my friendships. They're all gone...forever," he muttered. Alice just looked at him sympathetically as she moved in closer to her brother. She stroked his cheek affectionately before answering.

"Now you know that isn't true. Your true friends will always remain friends with you. You will go through rough patches together and usually you will end up closer friends then ever before," she said. Eric just looked at her deep green eyes and wondered if what she was saying was true.

"I appreciate what you are trying to do sis but I'm not sure whether it is appropriate now. Carla hates me, Alex doesn't think I'm trustworthy and Chris... well I don't know what he thinks but I'm sure that it's also bad," Eric moaned.

"Try talking to them Eric... maybe they don't hate you as much as you think," she told him as she kissed him lightly on the cheek before leaving.

A week soon passed and Eric was still pondering whether or not it was wise to make up with his friends. He felt so isolated without them yet he wasn't so sure on how to approach them or even how to talk to them. During the recess break he made his way to the office of Mrs. Fife, the school's resident psychologist. He knocked on the door before entering. He saw the Siberian husky put the book she was reading on a table as she turned to him.

"Hi there... how may I help you?" she asked.

"Mrs. Fife... I'm having some trouble speaking to my friends and I was hoping you could help me," Eric said softly as he sat down on a chair. He saw Mrs. Fife turn around and rifle through a filing cabinet.

"What is your name?" she asked.

"Eric Stevenson,"

"Eric... do you have a sister called Alice by any chance?"

"Yes. Why do you ask?" Eric asked curiously

"Because I was talking to her this morning before school, she was expressing some concerns about your wellbeing,"

Eric looked at the ground between his feet. His sister actually cared for him like that? He had never ever thought that it could be like. They were always arguing over things and it was a miracle that they hadn't killed each other yet.

"She mentioned that you had recently broken up with your girlfriend and also severed your ties with your other friends. To what extent is that true?" Mrs. Fife asked as she faced him.

"It's all true... and I know that it is at least partly my fault. I want to save my friendship and my relationship but I am afraid to approach them. Is there anything I can do?" Eric asked hesitantly. Mrs. Fife gave Eric a sympathetic look before answering.

"Well from what your sister had told me there are a few techniques that might possibly work. I understand how difficult it can be to talk to someone so soon after such an event. Your confidence is the very first thing that you have to develop. For if you are not confident then you will not be able to show that you are a good friend. Only when you have confidence then you should approach your friends. Go to them one at a time and speaking calmly to them. Apologize for anything that you know that you have done and make sure that you are not saying it half-heartedly. That is but only way to solve your problem but do not take my word for it. Sometimes the best method of solving something is coming up with it yourself... peace be with you,"

That afternoon after school Eric decided to give some thought to what he had been told by Mrs. Fife.

"Your confidence is the very first thing that you have to develop,"

Eric leaned back in his chair as he gave this some thought. He threw his pen that he had in his mouth onto his table. He would need his sister's help on this one.

Eric walked over to his sister's room and knocked on the door. He could hear a cd player being turned off as he waited outside. Her sister poked her head out of the door and looked at him, her hair tied back in a ponytail.

"What is it Eric? I'm kinda busy at the moment?" she told him.

"Busy doing what? Practicing dance moves?" Eric answered.

"Maybe...look what is the problem?"

"Well I was thinking... could you help me by pretending to be my friends?"

Alice cocked her head at him with a look of confusion on her face. She had no idea what her brother had meant by that statement. Eric sighed as he proceeded to explain himself.

"Well what I'm asking you to do is to play the role of my friends that I have to befriend again,"

"So in other words you want me to act as Alex, Chris and Carla then?" his sister asked. Eric nodded. How could something so easy have been so hard to explain?

"Fine... I've got nothing better to do at the moment anyway," Alice muttered as she turned off her light and followed Eric into his room.

"So that's all you've got?"

"Why? Isn't it good enough?"

Alice shook her head as she read through what Eric had scribbled down on a piece of paper. For an apology it seemed a little short, only a quarter of a page and this was factoring in Eric's abysmal looking handwriting.

"Look why don't you try something like this?" Alice said as she grabbed another piece of paper from a file and started writing as quickly as she could. Eric tried to look over her shoulder to see what she was writing but only ended up lying face-first on the floor.

"Here try this," Alice muttered as she handed the piece of paper to Eric. He read through it carefully with mixed reactions. By the end of it he realized how much better her version when compared to his version.

"How do you manage to come up with such stuff like this?" Eric asked. Alice rolled her eyes at him.

"I'm a girl... I would know how Carla would react... that's what I would like to hear if some guy did the same thing to me,"

"Well thanks anyway sis," Eric said as he hugged her from his current position.

"Eric I would appreciate it if you didn't hug my feet so much. If you want to give me a hug then give me a proper one," Alice mumbled. Eric tried to look at her from where he was on the floor but the only thing his field of view could provide was straight up Alice's skirt. She let out a short squeal before kicking Eric aside. She stormed out of the room feeling a little bit depraved as she went downstairs. Picking himself up off the floor Eric rubbed the sore spot on his head as he lay back on his bed.

"My sister doesn't wear panties at home?" he asked himself.

During the rest of the week Eric spent a couple of hours just running through what he would say to Alex, Chris and Carla. He had gotten the whole thing down in his mind and he was ready to go make up with Alex and Chris. He was a little more than hesitant when it came to making up with Carla though and he requested that Alice come with him just for comfort and support. As the pair stood outside Carla's house Eric held on to his sister's paw tightly, a bead of nervous sweat fell across his face.

"Come on Eric you can do this. Just do it like we rehearsed. You know what to do," Alice told him. Eric nodded slowly as he went up to knock on her door.

"Go get 'em tiger," she muttered as she pulled out her mp3 player.

Gathering his nerves he went up and rang the doorbell. His mind raced as Carla's sister answered the door.

"And who might you be?" she asked gruffly.

"Who is it?" Eric heard a voice yell out.

"I dunno... some guy, wasn't he your ex?"

"Oh really? Show him in,"

Eric was puzzled. Carla actually wanted to see him for once? He followed Carla's elder sister to where he presumed Carla was staying.

"Chris? What are you doing here?" Eric asked in surprise.

"Saving your ass that's what!" Chris muttered, "Why else do you think I got pissed at you that day? I was gathering evidence that Laura is a massive slut who sleeps around with everyone! And my hard work has paid off!"

"You were stalking her?" Eric asked. Chris stayed silent as he looked at the pictures that he had taken.

"Can I take a look at these?" Eric asked as he picked a few pictures and looked through them carefully. He shook his head in disbelief as one image after another showed the kitsune with several different males who were all in relationships with girls.

"Damn... just what is wrong with this girl?" he wondered as he looked through some of the other photos. He paused at the photo of her and the captain of the football team. Called 'The Flash' by his teammates because of his incredible speed he was known as a promiscuous character, moving from one girlfriend to another in the time some people had eaten their lunch. Eric chuckled to himself as he placed the photo back onto the table.

"So as I was saying earlier, you said that you wanted proof and here it is. I have no idea on who she is going to target next but it will only be a matter of time before she goes and tries to befriend someone who is well respected," Chris said to Carla as she looked through more of the photos.

Outside the house Alice was starting to get a little bored. She had already gone through every single one of her songs on her 1 gigabyte mp3 player and she was looking around for something to do. Presently one of her friends was cycling around the block, presumably on her fitness regime.

"Alice? Hey what are you doing here?"

Alice turned around to see her friend Fiona. The mouse was a fanatic about exercise and it didn't take a lot of effort to see that she worked out a lot. Alice despised her a bit for her superior body but she was a good friend, even if she was a little arrogant sometimes.

"Um... I'm waiting for my brother to finish whatever business he's got inside," Alice replied.

"I see... well I'd better be going. I'm late for my tennis class. Catch you later alright!" Fiona said before pedaling off. Alice stuck her tongue out at her in a playful manner and turned her attention back to the front door.

"So how did it go?" she asked Eric as he walked down Carla's driveway.

"Better then I expected. She said that she'd think about continuing our relationship," Eric replied as he gave his sister a hug, "And I have you to thank for it,"

Alice blushed a bit as she smiled at him, "Glad to be of service,"