Issues of a 16 year old boy
another day another nickel
Today, another school day, another day to live in sadness. The only upside? My Nikon camera came in the mail. I'm happy about it, but there isn't much but dirt around here. I guess I must improvise. Today didn't provide much drama or happiness. I said hi to Richie today and he just smiled, but the rest of the day he didn't say hi, or look at me. Still I haven't made another friend yet. i just feel that everyone hates me or something. In California, where I just moved from, i was loved and everyone was happy to see me. I'm a nice person, so why aren't I liked? At least I don't have to deal with my parents. They are at the hospital because my step dad is super sick. I don't like my parents very much, and I enjoy the time away from them. I used to smoke pot and I got caught. I told my mom I did it for myself. I think I have high anxiety and also depression, and I told her, but she didn't believe me. I was mad, but I guess she'll be eating crow when I'm lying dead in the bath tub or at the bottom of the river. I stop smoking, also for myself. I began to realize that I was hallucinating, and it was getting worse. I also realized that I hallucinated and heard voices when I was younger too. I saw "auras" but I don't believe in that crap, nor do I believe in a higher power. I'm gong crazy, and It's driving me to my grave. Maybe I should just stop repressing it and show my parents the real me, but that could be bad for the world.