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I knew I had to act quickly if I was to save Seigi. I stopped crying just long enough to collect what I was going to do. I looked back down at him, and examined his injuries. I have to stop the bleeding. I ripped off the shirt I was wearing and started tearing it into strips. I placed the strips of my shirt over Seigi's entire furry body. The shirt almost instantaneously started to turn a shade of red. I tried not to think of what might happen, but it was useless. I hope to God I made it here in time. I looked back down at him, and almost started to cry again. The shirt I put over him now had Seigi's crimson fluids all over it. He looks so peaceful, like he's just sleeping. Maybe this is all a bad dream, and I'll wake up in his arms. Sadly, my feeble attempts to try and wake myself up were no use. This wasn't just a bad dream, it was reality. I saw that Seigi's bleeding slowed, but he had already lost a lot of blood, and I feared the worst. At that instant, I looked up and saw flashing lights in the distance, and I heard the far-off sound of sirens. I stood up, waving my paws to draw their attention. As they approached even closer, I went back to tending to Seigi. I finished wrapping him in my makeshift bandage and went up to examine his face. He definitely hit his head on something. There was a small gash in the side of his head, and a larger one on the side of his muzzle. I tenderly licked my paw and wiped the blood off the side of his muzzle. I looked at him, and my eyes started to fill with tears again. This is entirely my fault. If I would have left with him, I would have been behind him and able to get to him quicker, and maybe he would still be conscious and not dying. I stepped back from Seigi as I heard a car stop behind me and paramedics run by. They quickly examined him and whisked him onto a stretcher. As they put him in the back of the ambulance, I saw the slightest amount of movement come from him. I ran over to the ambulance and attempted to climb on board.

"I'm sorry, but this is for family members only."

"I'm the only family he's got!" It came out as a mix of anger and fear. Angry that they wouldn't let me aboard, but fear as that sentence sunk in. We've only got each other, and now I'm not sure if I'll even have that. The paramedic looked at me skeptically, but finally gave in and let me climb up. I sat down next to Seigi, holding his paw the whole way to the hospital. The paramedics were looking at me strangely, and I wasn't sure if that was because I was holding Seigi's paw or the fact that I had no shirt on. I didn't care though. All I cared about that Seigi would be ok. I kept staring at him, subconsciously hoping that if I started at him long enough, he would wake up and be perfectly fine. Nothing eventful happened the entire ride, except the paramedics asking who he was. They also examined me becasue of the cuts i sustained rescuing Seigi, but I told them i was fine. They still put a bandage around me, and it was rather uncomfortable, restricting quite a bit of my motion and holding down all my fur in my stomach area. When the ambulance finally pulled up to the hospital, Seigi was whisked away into the emergency entrance, while I was led to the main waiting room. The folks there were kind enough to give me a shirt, but I took it without a thank-you. I was so distraught, I took a seat and began staring at the wall. I looked at that white wall for hours, memorizing every flaw, every spot of discoloration, every mark on the cursed thing. If I had gone home with him, I wouldn't be here right now, and Seigi wouldn't be in an emergency room getting operated on. This is all my fault. Tears started forming at the corners of my eyes. I had though I had cried all that I could, but apparently I was mistaken, as tears started to fall again. They were less intense, and I didn't make a sound the entire time. I just sat there and silently cried, trying to release the pain that was held inside me.

Slowly, my tears stopped, but my eyes were still misty and wet. I had half a mind to punch my paw through the wall I was staring at for the past two hours. As I was contemplating how much pain would come with punching the wall, I saw a doctor approach me, and I stood up to greet him.

"Are you related to Seigi?" His question came out with a solemn tone to his voice, and I feared for the worst.

"Is he okay?" My voice was on the verge of breaking, and I felt the tears well up once again in the corners of my eyes.

"Physically, he is ok. He'll need to rest for the next day or so, since he dislocated his leg. He'll be able to walk, but may be sore for a while."

"Physically? What's wrong with him?" This doctor was starting to scare me. Did he suffer brain damage? Is he brain dead? God dammit, this is all my fault. I looked at him with pleading eyes, waiting for him to continue.

"Well, it seems Seigi is suffering from post-traumatic stress induced amnesia. This means that because of his head injuries, he suffered amnesia. He still remembers all of the vitals, like his name, where he lives, his parent's names, what school he goes to. He didn't mention you though. Who are you?" My heart instantly went to my throat, as I took in what he said. He doesn't remember me? How is that possible? My voice cracked as I told him who I was.

"My name is Kausn. I'm Seigi's....... I'm his lover."

"The doctor gave me an extremely strange look, as if to say 'You're his what?!', but didn't comment on it. I didn't care, because I just wanted to see Seigi.

"Well, Mr. Kausn, it seems that Seigi either forgot to mention you or he doesn't remember you. We tried to contact his parents, but they didn't answer. Do you know anyway to get a hold of them?" My tears started to fall again, and I tried to hide my face as I spoke.

"No, you won't be able to get a hold of his parents. They disowned him not more than five hours ago. I don't know of any one else other than me that you can contact." The doctor's face turned to a look of horror and sympathy.

"Ok, well you are able to see him now. Just don't overwhelm him with details, since he just woke up and it's not good to overwhelm a person who has amnesia. It will just make them confused, and possibly make the situation worse." I walked with the doctor down the hallway to the room where Seigi was staying.

As I walked I glanced at all of the pictures on the walls, the flowers by the doors, and the designs on the walls. It was trying to seem more like a home than a hospital, but to me, it still felt like a prison. I walked into Seigi's room, and saw him lying on the bed, his eyes closed, seeming to be resting peacefully. I stopped at the entrance, taking in what I was looking at. His entire body was covered in cuts, his fur was still pretty red, and his head was wrapped in a bandage. I walked over to him, and sat down by his bed side. I looked at him for about five minutes, before he opened his eyes to look at me. His eyes were as blue as ever, even in this dull hospital room. Finally he spoke, but it made my heart drop even further than it had before.

"May I help you?" There was no certain tone to his voice, it was an honest question. I could feel tears starting to fall, and I looked away from him, not wanting him to see me cry.

"You don't recognize me, do you?" My voice was starting to fail me as I asked, and didn't trust myself to speak again.

"I don't know, should I?" With that sentence, my tears started to flow freely, hitting the floor. I let a sob of anguish escape me, not wanting any of this to be true. "I'm sorry. Did I say something I shouldn't have?" I looked up at Seigi through my misty eyes, seeing nothing but a white blur. I saw the look of confusion on his face, and I couldn't take it anymore.

"No, it's just...... you don't remember who I am?"

"No, I'm sorry. Are you a friend of mine or something?"

"I'm a little bit more than a friend." He didn't seem to pick up on the hint, and I couldn't take being this sad. I got up out of the chair and started to leave. Just before I exited the room, he started to speak.

"Hey, if it makes you feel any better, I think you're a very handsome husky." I turned back and looked at him, staring into his eyes. I smiled slightly, his comment making me feel a little bit better.

"Thank you. That means a lot to me." I left the room soon after, still unhappy, but my mood had improved slightly. At least he's still kind of attracted to me. My thoughts wandered as I walked down the hallway. I thought about how I'd adjust to this, how I'd tell him we were a couple, and worst of all, tell him that his parents disowned them. As I turned the corner back to the waiting room, the sight that I saw made my fur stand on end.

Seigi's father was there, talking to the one of the receptionists. His mother was also there, sitting in the waiting room. I glanced at her, and she looked back at me. A warm smile greeted me, and for a moment, I was utterly confused. Why would she smile at me? Doesn't she hate me for taking her son away from her? I paused, unsure of what to do. Before I could make a move, she got up from her seat and walked over to me. Her husband didn't even notice as she walked past him, too deeply in his conversation with the receptionist. She walked past me and motioned me to follow her. Something told me I should, so I kept pace with her. She was still smiling at me when we reached Seigi's door. She stopped just outside of his door. I looked at her with a really confused look, not exactly sure what was going on.

"Listen, I'm so sorry about what happened. I tried to talk Seigi's father out of it, but he's just so stubborn sometimes. I'm really sorry that he called your parents and told them. He just can't stand people being different." It took me a second to realize what she was talking about, but when I did, it hit me like a ton of bricks.

"So, your husband called my parents, and told them that me and Seigi...."

"Yes, and I'm sorry about that. I truthfully approve of this wholeheartedly. It makes me happy that Seigi finally found someone that he wants to spend his life with, and I'm glad it was you." At that, I blushed a little, my white fur turning slightly pink.

"Thank you. I'm so glad that you understand. Did the doctor talk to you?"

"No, he didn't. Is Seigi okay?" Her smile instantly vanished; a look of concern instantly replaced it.

"He's pretty much okay. He suffered amnesia from the accident, and he doesn't remember me at all. He remembers everything but me." At that, I felt a single tear fall from my eye. His mother saw that, and wrapped me up in her arms.

"I'm so sorry. Now, I must ask you to leave, because if his father sees you, I'm not exactly sure what he'll do. I know it won't be good though."

"Okay. Thank you for understanding. You have no idea what that means to me, and what it will mean to Seigi." I could tell that she was slightly distraught, and really didn't know what to say. That was okay though, because I had at least someone that I could talk to and not be afraid of the consequences. She understood that we found love in each other, and she knew that it wasn't just another date, but true love that made your heart skip a beat.

"It's really no problem. I'll call you later with an update on how Seigi's doing."

"Ok, thank you." With that, I decided that it was time to go. I didn't want to risk an encounter with Seigi's dad, as that could.....no, it would, cause a big scene. I walked down the hallway, taking the back way to the parking lot. When I got out there, I realized that the Wolfe Records building was right across the street. I walked across, into the parking lot, where I found my car. I pulled out the keys I still had in my pocket, and opened up the car. I climbed in, and just sat there. His mom actually understands. This thought made my tail wag slightly. She even approves of it. It's truly a miracle.

I felt my phone vibrate, and I glanced down at it. It was a text from Mr. Wolfe. How does he know I have texting? It would be a question for later, as I read the text.

'Kausn, I just heard about Seigi. I hope he'll be ok. Please call me as soon as you can.' I decided that calling him would have to wait, as I wanted to get to the hotel. I fired up the engine, jumping slightly at the sound.

"Great, now I'll be afraid of cars." I said to myself as I pulled out of the parking lot. I slowly got up to speed, and in no time, I found myself pulling into the parking lot of the hotel. I parked the car, and went up to the hotel. This place is huge! It was a really fancy, grand looking hotel. I walked through the doors, and I instantly felt out of place. I looked above me, and saw a glass chandelier hanging from the ceiling. I gawked at it, taking in its enormous size and its sheer mass. When I was done gawking, I walked over to the receptionists' desk and asked about the room that should have been reserved. The receptionist handed me a key and told me the room number. I thanked her, and began scouring the halls for my room. When I finally found it, I unlocked the door and entered. I was instantly blow away as I looked around, taking in the spectacular view. It was more like a suite than a hotel room. It had everything I could ever need, not to mention a tremendous view of the city. I went over to the bed and plopped down on it, feeling my fur sink in to the luxurious sheets. I slowly stripped to my boxers, ready to finally get some rest. As I lay there, I thought about everything that had happened tonight. A single tear came to my eye as I thought about Seigi. We may never be the same. Even if he does feel an attraction to me, it still won't be the same as what we had before. Heck, maybe he doesn't even really love me anymore. Maybe we'll go our separate ways, and meet up again somewhere down the road. My crying increased as I thought these things. I desperately wanted these thoughts out of my head, but whenever I thought of something else, Seigi somehow always managed to pop up. Damn, I love that wolf. I lay there, feeling the tears pool up on my pillow.

I decided that I would make it my mission to make Seigi happy. Whether that involved me in his life or not, I wasn't quite sure. I lay there in that empty bed, thinking about him next to me, the heat from his body, the softness of his fur, and, for a second, I believed that he was there, that nothing had changed. That feeling went as swiftly as it came, and it left me feeling cold and alone. My crying slowed as I started to drift off into much needed sleep. Slowly, I drifted off into a land where nothing was wrong. Everything was perfect. No pain, no crying, just happiness. Seigi was there, and I started to run toward him. But, as I ran, he seemed to being getting farther away. He was trying to tell me something, but I couldn't make out what he was saying. Slowly, he started to fade away. I tried to tell him to wait, but all that came out was an inaudible squeak. He finally faded away completely, and I felt completely and utterly alone. I woke up crying, still feeling the remnants of a dream that left me feeling cold and alone.

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