Under the blood moon- LIving in the moment
#3 of Under the 24 moons
I sat in my car for thirty minuets before i actually turned it on. I still didn't feel like going to school but they were bound to send someone to find out I wasn't dead seeing as i wasn't in a hospital or on vacation with family. I was still feeling the fear as it lingered in the back of my mind. I put it in gears and drove off towards school. I didn't listen to my music like I usaully do. I didn't feel like listening to anything. I pulled up to the campus seeing the front of the school and decided to park on the side. I felt like a horrible person for letting that happen and not doing anything about it so I didn't want Angel to see me here. I just avoided everyone not like anyone cared anyways.
I walked through the halls as everyone talked amongst their friends. Walking by I could feel their eyes on me and i felt disgusted with myself. I relised I had a tear running down my cheak. I wiped it of and hurried down the hall hoping no one saw me crying instead though I ran into the last person I wanted to see me crying. I looked up and saw Angel staring at me. I saw her open her mouth to say something but I shoved past her so she couldn't say anything to me. I ran into the most quiet place I knew of in this school, the library.
I went to the back waving my hello to the librarian and I sat in the corner behind some book cases with my head in my legs as I tried to colect myself. I sat there for awhile trying to slow my thoughts to actually understand the words in my head. I lost my mind as i remembered that night. I remembered every detail like I was reliving it again. The event that has haunted my dreams and my mind for more then a week now.
" God, you must think I'm disgusting don't you?" I said to myself punishing myself for what happened.
" Now why the hell would he think that?" The new vioce scared me as I looked up shocked. Looking up I saw a White husky standing there looking down at me while trying to grab a book from the opposite shelf," God wouldn't ever think apon someone like that." he smiled and seeing it I felt as if heaven touched me," Oh sorry. Don't mind me I was just trying to grab this book here. What are you doing on the floor. Do you need any help with anything?" he put out his hand to help me up.
" Uh thanks." I said taking it as he pulled me up with ease but it was too much as I lost my balance and fell into him pinning him against the book case. He just laughed. I looked at his eyes and suddenly before I knew it my lips were on his. Hearing him mumble through my kiss I backed off and relized what I did and turned around to run off leaving him there with his mouth open. In the hallways I heard him trying to fall to me but thankfuly the bell rang and I made my way to my class.
For the rest of the day I just osolated myself from everyone else sitting in the back of class, eating out in the football field at lunch and ditching p.e. But like everything else my odds are against me. When my seventh period let out I walked out of my class and as I turned the corner the husky from earlier was standing right infront of me. i quickly turned to flee again but he caught my hand making me turn around.
" Wait don't run." he said and I stood there static to the floor. He then continued," Why are you trying to run from me and what was with that kiss earlier?"
" I'm sorry I didn't mean to kiss you. I don't know what came over me." I spoke looking at the ground.
" Hey don't worry about that it happeneds alot but next time ask me out first before you decide to kiss me." hey said putting his hand on my shoulder and smiling at me.
" Your not mad at me?" I asked in disbeliefe.
" Well no I'm more confused then mad but no not mad."
" So your gay? You don't look gay." I questioned him.
" I'm not. It goes bothways for me."
" So your bi?"
" I don't put a label on it. I just love and thats that but besides that why did you kiss me?" he looked at me. I don't know what was about his eyes but they always made me blush and also they were weird. They were a deep blue but I could swear I saw it change colors.
" I don't know." by the way he stared at me I knew he wasn't going to take that as an answer so I decided to explain all that I could without actually telling him what happened," Well somethingg happened to me that was bad and since then I just felt horrible about myself and what you told me in the library gave me hope I guess and the only way I could express my thank you was through a kiss and also there's something about your eyes that made me feel like.... like I was still alive."
" My eyes?" I saw him look confused as I thought why I would say that. He probably thought i was crazy.
" Um forget I said that." I saw what I said puzzeled him even more and smiled and said," Never mind I'm just going to leave now." I turned around to walk off again.
" Wait a minuet. Don't walk off again please." he stopped me again," You owe me for that kiss now am I going to have to make the move or are you going to ask me out oh by the way my name is Ryan?"
" Hey Ian! Wait up!" I heard Angel running out to me as I walked to my car." What happened to giving me a ride everyday and why did you run from me? If you didn't want me to ask for rides anymore you could of told me."
" Huh? No it's not like that just something happened lately that I don't feel like explaining." I told her.
" Well ok you don't have to if you don't want to. Just remember, I'm here for you ok." I nodded in response," Well anyways do you mind giving me a ride?"
" Sure but we can't hangout today."
" Why not?"
" Because I kind of have a date today." I explained while climing in my car.
" Wait a minuet. A date? That's new. Doesn't seem like you. Are you sure your ok?"
" Yes, I'm fine." I said pushing her to the side for saying that.
" Hah, with who and who is that walking up to your car."
" That's him." I said as Ryan walked up to the window.
" Hey. Whose this?" he said smiling at Angel.
" Angel this is Ryan, Ryan this is my bestfriend Angel." I said as they shook hands," Hey Ryan you don't mind riding in the back do you cause we're dropping off Angel before we go out."
" No I don't mind." He said clibming into the back seat.
" Where are you guys going?" Angel asked while eyeing him definently pleased at his body and how fit he was.
" We're going to Sylls." I said poking her to stop her from staring at him. I didn't want her to make him uncomfertable.
" Oh pride is in this town today thats why your going there huh?" she said.
" Ya. I've never been to a pride paraid." he said with an optimistic smile.
" Oh you'll love it. Wait Ian, I thought we were going to that."
" Well we can all go." Ryan said and I saw Angel smiling at me and I knew I couldn't get her out of the equation and prepared for a night of her trying to steal the attention from me as I sighed.
Well cut sort again hope you like. :)