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This is a commision that is long over due to Thorin Pheonix. As many may know Galaxy was Thorin's original fursona but that changed after a while. They are both Wats (part wolf part big cat) that are gray and black. Galaxy is about 5' 7" , and Thorin is 5'11". Also in here is Damien(myself) and Gabriel(a made up me). They are both Skolfs(part skunk part wolf) same height, only differences are Damien has multicolored markings and is nowhere as muscular as Gabriel. Now that that is cleared up have fun.

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As I wake up to an empty bed all I can see is a note. 'We need to talk.' -Damien. 'Could this be the words that every person dreads in a relationship?' I wondered to myself. I sat there until I felt a sharp pain coming from my claws. I noticed that I was bleeding; I must have been chewing on my nails. I rolled out of bed with a groan and walked to the bathroom to clean off my bloody paws. The bathroom was still being retiled by the shower, but near the sink was already finished. Unfortunately, to use the sink you have to get all the tools off of the counter. I never really understood all the tools, but I could identify a lot; there were the screw drivers (flat heads and Phillips), the wrenches, the drills, the razors, and all the others. I got most off of the counter, to the point that I could use the sink. I washed up but then I heard the sound of the front door closing and not one, but two sets of footsteps.

"Damien, is that you?" I yelled reaching for a hammer.

"Yes, Galaxy," he said in an awkward tone, "can you come here?"

I put the hammer down and started for the front room, I looked around the corner to see Damien sitting on the couch and next to him was another fur. As I got closer I noticed that they were holding paws. I couldn't help but stop moving and just stare.

"Hun, you may want to sit down for what I'm about to tell you." He said grasping the fur's paw with his other.

I did as I was told and walked over to the chair across from them still in shock from what I was looking at. I took a deep breath, as did he and the fur, as we just sat there staring at each other.

Damien sat up and coughed, clearly trying to break the ice of the awkward situation. "Galaxy, I came out of the closet about being bi so long ago, but I've never really had a chance to know if how I feel is real. But for the last couple months I have been longing to know. Then I started to hang out with Blake, and I started to have feelings that I've never had before...not even with you. But we started talking and I realized that you and I aren't going to work the way you would like them. I think that you and I should go our separate ways. I'm sorry it had to be like this, but Blake makes me feel special, like I am who I am supposed to be. So I am going to move in with him. I'm sorry, but can we still be friends?" He said this with such sincerity, but all I could do was nod my head yes. "I'm going to go because the longer I stay, the harder this is going to be on you. Good bye Galaxy." And with that, he and Blake left leaving me crying, feeling a giant hole forming in what was once my heart.

I got up lifelessly and walked to my bed. I lied down for hours just crying and screaming. All I wanted to do was die. I didn't want to live in a world that didn't involve him. I got up and went into the bathroom and searched around through toolbox after toolbox until I came across what I was looking for. I grabbed the razor blade with my right paw and started slicing at my left wrist. Cut after cut I watched myself bleed, watching every drop that came out of my veins. I kept going until I couldn't feel anything, I watched as a shroud of blackness covered everything I could see. All I could do was wait for the blackness to take me into it, taking me away from this horrible life. I waited and waited, and finally I slipped into the cold, lifeless darkness.

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I drifted through the dark, I felt nothing: no sadness, no anger, no pleasure, or pain. I drifted through for what felt like an eternity at times, and at others just mere seconds. I knew not why I was here, or even where here was. I knew only of the emptiness that not only surrounded me, but filled every fiber of my being. To be everything, but at the same time nothing. I felt the emptiness begin to fade, the darkness slowly began to dissipate. I felt myself come back into existence. I heard a voice calling to me. I wanted to answer, but the darkness was still to strong. All I could do was listen and wait.

"Honey wake up," pleaded a worried, and frantic voice, "I need you, please don't leave me in this world without you!" This voice sounded so familiar but I had never heard it before. "Please, you are more important to me then life itself! Please wake up!" I now noticed that my head was being cradled and boy did my head hurt. I attempted to open my eyes, but only my left eye could open, the other just sent jolts of pain down my face. "Oh thank god, you are ok, well to an extent." and with that I was greeted with tons of kisses all over my face.

"Gabriel, is that you?" I was shocked by not only that I somehow knew this strange voice, but that my voice sounded so differently, so much more masculine. "What happened? Where am I?"

"Babe, you were just attacked, how do you not remember that?" Gabriel asked. "As to where we are is my house, I found you passed out in the park. I was so scared, I didn't know if you were going wake up, I could've lost you." Gabriel hugged me, and while still in his grip he said, "I love you Thorin, please don't ever leave me."

"I love you too Gabriel, I'll never leave you, I promise." and with that I just sat there in his embrace. I didn't even care that everything was completely different, but he felt so right, as if I had been with him before. This all seemed too good to be true, but I knew that it was. 'This can't be a dream, you don't feel pain in dreams.' I thought to myself. I didn't know this skolf, nor do I really know who I am, but it all felt so similar, as if this had all happened before. For the time being though, I was going to cherish this.

"Here, I'll take you to your house; you need to get some rest." And to my surprise Gabriel picked me up as if I was just a doll. He bridal carried me for ten blocks until we arrived at a lovely lavender house. The kind of house you would see an old fashioned family living in. It was of old Victorian style, but how I knew that I do not know. It had a porch that surrounded the whole front of the house, with two wooden rocking chairs. In the yard there was a giant cherry blossom tree with a tire swing, but that was only one of the many trees that surrounded this beautiful home. I couldn't help but marvel at the sight of it. I heard Gabriel giggle, and I noticed that my jaw was slightly dropped. But how couldn't I not, this house was the most amazing thing I had ever seen. He carried me up the porch and through a big white door, into a grand room with wooden flooring, a stair case, and a shining chandelier.

"Do you want to take it from here, or do you want me to take you to your room hun?" He said this and I somehow knew where my room was, but I wanted him to still carry me.

"You should take me, I don't know if I can walk that well." I lied, but hey, as long as I got to be in his arms, it was worth it.

"Ok." he said rolling his eyes, he so knew what my plan was. So he carried me up the stairs with ease, turned left down a hall way to the final door on the right. He opened it up to show a lovely heliotrope room. The bed was white, as were the drapes. To the left was the bed, and to the right was my desk, which was covered in my thousands of art supplies, and on the other side of the room was window and seat built right below it so you could sit and look out it. "Here you go." He said placing me down on the bed, "Do you mind if I join you for a while, or should I go?"

"No!" I exclaimed. Settling down now, "You should stay and cuddle with me."

"Ok." he said with a giggle. He came and laid down behind me, cuddling me. His grip was so strong, but gently, as if you were holding a small infant. Gabriel then began to stoke my ears, which immediately sent me into a purring fit. I heard him giggle, when I realized I was needling the air, clearly my feline side was enjoying this deeply. This went on until I felt my eyelids begin to lower as I gently fell asleep.

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I felt the darkness surround me again, as I lost my grip on reality. What I thought was a dream quickly unraveled into nothing more than a mere black emptiness.

I felt the love that I just had inside of me slip away, till I was the hollow shell that I was earlier. I felt nothing, knew nothing, and understood nothing. Everything that I was, was now, nothing.

As if I was being born again, I saw the light for the first time, I walked toward it but I could never get to it. I could see images, and here voices, that were so familiar but so foreign to me.

"Galaxy, please *sob*, wake up, I beg you *sob, I didn't mean to hurt you." I saw the skolf kneeling next to a lifeless body, which I assumed was mine. "I do love you, just don't leave, I'm so sorry." I heard a ping and the skolf looked up. "DOCTOR! DOCTOR QUICK!" He demanded, but just as he finished the word "quick" the blackness returned.

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I awoke to Gabriel's left leg twitching backwards and him talking in his sleep like a fur in a drunken stupor, "Yeshhhh.....I will marry your.........." just then his tail twitched and he started to open his eyes. "Hey hun, you look much better, do you want me to make you something to eat?" Just then my stomach growled. "I'll take that as a yes." He stretched out his full length then got out of bed. He opened the door half way, he flipped his head back, "Do you want a veggie patty of mine or real meat?"

"As long as its *yawn* something chicken flavored I don't care."

"Ok my big pewty tat." He said teasing as he left me all alone. I walked over to the seat by the window and sat down and looked out at the butterflies gathering on the cherry blossom tree outside. It was breath taking to watch all of their wings beat to the same rhythm but in a different timing for each one. I couldn't help but stare at the one resting on the window sill. I felt as if it was trying to tell me something. As if it was trying to communicate with me, but then its wings began to flutter and it left me to rejoin its brethren. I heard the door open and close as Gabriel re-entered the room to rejoin me.

"I found a box of fake chicken patties so I made us both one." He said as he sat next to me with a plate in his right hand carrying two of the most mouth watering morsels of food my eyes could ever gaze upon. It was after my stomach growled that I realized that they weren't as splendid and amazing as my hunger made me imagine, but simply just average.

I took a bite and I could tell that's what my tummy had wanted. It begged me to continue. "I put mayo on it just how you like it." Gabriel said. I nodded in agreement not really caring at the time, but only focusing on filling my stomach.

After eating Gabriel put the plate aside and walked me out the hallway. He took me down the hallway to the bathroom and turned on the shower. He proceeded to take off my shirt. "I'm going to let you do the rest on your own. Your dad is home and if he walks in on us in the shower again he might not let me come back oks? I nodded, and he left, locking the door on his way out. I took off my pants and briefs and got in the shower. I felt my fur rise as the water touched me. Why must my feline side hate this so much?

After showering I grabbed a towel off the rack and dried myself off. I couldn't help but stare into the full length mirror in the corner of the bathroom. I was pretty tall maybe just a little under 6 feet tall. I had black and gray fur, but that didn't seem strange. The strange part was that I was a guy. It felt odd, but I liked it. I turned around to examine my back. I was caught in awe as I noticed my back fur made an intricate yin-yang design. My tail clearly showed that I was a cat, from the rest of me I determined I was definitely part wolf.

*Knocking on the door* "Hello, Thorin are you ready to get changed yet?" Gabriel asked from the other side of the door.

"I will be right out." I used my towel to cover up my lower half and opened the door. Gabriel handed me a handful of clothes then stepped back so I could close the door and change. I put on what he had handed me, a simple baby blue t-shirt, a black pair of shorts, and a black pair of briefs(the label deemed them as Frisque©, Feel frisky in Frisque, sounded like something Gabriel would say).

I opened the door and Gabriel was nowhere to be found. I walked back to my room. I found there was a note on the bed. 'Sorry Thorin that I couldn't kiss you good night, but I had to go home, you know how my mum can get. Loves you.' -Gabriel. I felt my ears lower as I knew I already missed him. I went put the note on the desk then climbed into bed. Hopefully I will see him tomorrow. With my last thought being of his face I drifted into sleep.

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The abyss spun around me, flipping and twirling me around inside of it as if nothing could stop it, but then with an abrupt pause the light appeared again.

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My head hurt so much, all I could hear was a constant beeping coming from my left side. I tried to open my eyes but all that came out was a groan. I heard footsteps approach me quickly but it was too late. The darkness had taken hold yet again.

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I awoke in my bed freezing. I noticed my feet had been uncovered for what I would assume most of the night. I heard a knocking coming from down stairs. I jumped out of bed eagerly rushing to see my Gabriel again. I was so excited to see him I could feel my wolf side taking over as my tail began to swish back and forth. I ran out my door, through the hallway, down the stairs bounding over the last two, straight to the front door. I jerked the door open as fast as I could. In the door way I found, standing in a repulsive brown suit, a Jehovah's Witness. Just as he opened his muzzle to speak I slammed the door in his face. If I want to hear about their religion I'll go to their church, but until then I'm going to await my boy friend Gabriel's arrival.

I surveyed my surroundings. Nobody was home, or at least awake. I scurried over to the living room and sat in the couch. To my astonishment, it was actually quite comfortable. I sat there looking through the magazines on the table until I felt my stomach growl. I got up and walked towards the kitchen.

Standing there in the middle of the linoleum floor of the kitchen was the most fluffy white and gold feral cat I had ever seen. I gleefully hurried over to bed it, but as soon as my foot pads touched the linoleum I could feel I was falling. I saw the ceiling going away from me as gravity took its course. I felt a sharp pain as my head hit a counter, and from here I blacked out.