The truth in the clouds
The truth in the clouds...
I gaze into my lovers eyes,
smiling,
as he gazes back at me,
blushing,
asking myself how this angel could want an omega such as me...
not a month after,
I come back to see a tear stained note on the table,
a cold shiver running up my spine.
I take the note,
paws shaking,
and immediately,
tears stream down my face,
soaking into my fur...
I throw it aside, and fall to my knees,
letting out a howl of sorrow for all to be heard,
a thousand daggers piercing my heart,
and for all those who hear the howl,
a chill runs up their spine...
They know that this day, a wolf has lost his mate...
I'm going crazy,
feeling like life itself is out to get me,
everywhere I turn,
a trigger that shoots painful memories through me;
I wish with every breath that this is but a dream...
Yet I pinch myself over and over, never waking up,
the pinch but a drop of water in the vast sea that is my misery...
He worries for me,
I tell him not to worry,
that I am fine...
my heart urges for me to scream out my love for him,
but my head tells me that if I truly love him, I shall let him go...
I watch him walk away,
tears in his eyes;
we both know its for the best...
I lose him from sight,
only to fall once more to my knees crying,
wishing it all away,
wishing to turn back time,
wishing to disappear...
Oh life why do you hate me so?
I wish for the cold, dark embrace of the deaths hand,
yet my friends hold on,
hoping to keep what is left of this shadow...
Blade in my paw,
tears in my eyes,
blood in my fur...
The new year approaches,
the explosions of fireworks drowning out the howls,
slowly, but surely, life drains from me...
Shakily, i hold a paw to my chest,
blood covers my paw,
shining a crimson red in the moonlight,
with my last breath, i whisper "i'm sorry..."
I fall to the floor,
laying in a pool of my own blood,
the last thing i see...
I lay up here,
looking down from the clouds,
months have passed,
i watch my friends,
They grieve,
wishing for my return,
something that cannot be done...
I too, wish to return, to see my friends one more time,
to talk to them,
laugh with them,
cry with them,
experience what life throws at us...
And to have one last moment with the one I love;
to tell him I love him,
to feel his soft paws against my fur,
to gaze upon his beauty,
to gaze upon the stars, arms and wings wrapped tightly around him...
As I look down, I see him,
the beautiful wolf I once knew,
in the scaled arms of his true love;
smiling, they look perfect together...
I imagine myself in his arms,
one last time,
in my wolves loving embrace,
I feel a cold tickle run up my spine,
crawling upwards,
its every touch expanding over me,
numbing me, feeling nothing more but a cold lonliness,
I let go of love, to forget what I lost;
it crawls up my chest;
I let go of hope, to ease the pain;
it slithers up my neck, as I look upwards into the night sky;
I let go of my memories, to slip away;
the last few glimpses of light disappearing from my eyes,
my love the last thing i see;
I collapse to the ground, feeling as if a sword has been rammed through me,
I thrash and writhe, pain coursing through every fibre,
choking, they stab into me,
A blood curdling howl is let out,
the last thing I whisper,
I love you...
they found it,
the soul...
they jab at it,
stab it,
killing any trace of my existance,
leaving nothing;
I fade away,
i reside no longer in this plain of existence...
He wakes up,
was it a nightmare?
Did he truly hear that scream?
Improbable,
impossible...
He lays down, falling asleep, unaware of the truth that lies in the clouds...
(Based on a real story)