Vengeance 24: After Merging
#8 of Vengeance
V24: After Merging
It had been a day since we had biomerged for the first time. And odd things were happening. I had ideas that weren't mine in my head. I asked Renamon about it. She was back in the house. After the merge she seemed like she had stopped fearing me.
Nathan: Hey Renamon?
Renamon: absentmindedly Um-hm?
Nathan: Since we biomerged I have been having weird thoughts. Like a compulsion to apologize to eat fish. Biomerging screw with peoples minds?
Renamon: Oh, that? When you biomerge you become one in body and mind. Essentially you get some of the other person. Sorry I love fish!
I look over to see what's she's doing. She had been reading one of my Fullmetal Alchemist books.
Nathan: You read FMA?
Renamon: No, I just can't fight the urge to read them.
Nathan: Ah! Sorry thats one of my traits, you must have gotten it.
She went back to reading. Then I got an idea. Perhaps I had been exposed to her feelings towards me. There was a good chance! I took up a meditation position that Matt had taught me. I remembered that and I flood of thought entered my head.
Matt: Hey Renamon!
Matt kisses her, Matt holding her.
Matt: I missed you!
I saw countless days together!
Matt: RENA!
Then it shifted.
Matt: not much time . . . get this to Omnimon . . . goodbye . . . my love . . .
I sat up, I realized what I had just saw! Matt dieing in her arms!
Nathan: Going to the bathroom!
I ran for the door. Went in, locked the door and jumped in the shower. I wouldn't let her hear me cry . . .
Renamon's Perspective
Renamon: MAN! I haven't enjoyed a book this much since Matt had showed me his!
I was enjoying the book. Then I remembered Matt doing the same things with me. I closed the book and curled into myself, I felt to lonely.
Renamon: I wish he was still here.
Then a shift. Not a memory like when I merged with Matt, just a single emotion. Lonesomeness. It was like nothing I had ever known. It was crushing, not an emotion, a physical feeling! It crushed me like a black cloud, I couldn't even think. Then I flash of light, and another. Then I was filled with light. I looked into expecting a god? No, inside that light, was me.
Renamon: How?
Then I realized it was Nathan's feelings. I curled as tightly as I could and cried.
Back with Nathan
I got out of the shower. Still breathing shakily I started to dry. I was done crying but that image was still haunting me. Matt, soaked in blood, saying goodbye. I leaned over the toilet and vomited.
Nathan: How could I have been that dumb!? Asking her out! Her last boyfriend died not 6 months ago! IN HERE ARMS!
I walked out of the bathroom and found Renamon curled in a ball. She was shaking and whimpering. I put my hand on her and gave her a shake.
Nathan: Renamon? Are you okay?
She uncurled and shot at me. Toppling me over she was on top of me, crying?
Renamon: I'm sorry! I DIDN'T KNOW! Please forgive me!
She was sputtering and crying. Ever time I tried to get up she pinned me back down. Eventually her cry's subsided. She collapsed onto me. I gave her another little shake?
Nathan: Renamon? You alright?
She didn't move but I could feel her breathing. Sighing I heaved her over my shoulder and put her in my bed. I grabbed a blanket and jumped onto the couch.
Nathan: Couch will have to do. I wonder what got her so spooked?