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Chapter 40: Our Lord of Black

(February 6th 2019 A.D. - Tuesday 5:30 Pm)

A cold sweat moved over the lone fox, staring off into a vast emptiness. A garden held before him, a stagnant air unmoving all around, crimson blood smearing his chest, and his body naked. Kitsune looked down to see the Dahlias and Tulips all around, blood spatter all around the petals of each. In the distance he could make out a group of figures making there way towards him. He began to jerk about moving violent in the flowers something causing a keening pain in his ears. He gripped and clutched at them digging claws, as if to pull them off. The pain was unbearable. He jerked himself down onto the ground the figures growing closer and closer, his head twitching and his tail stiff against the ground and blood dripping from his chest.

Suddenly sound began to come back to his senses, first there was just a sharp ring, and then the sounds of whispers all about. Different voices, and tones, all about his body and the sky grew dark. He could just barely hear the sounds of running through the flowers his head convulsing and his muscles twitching at all the dissonance abound.

"Is this hell!?" He asked himself, unable to hear his own words. He felt like his tongue was dry and his throat felt coarse. His eyes were weary and his muscles ached as if he'd been running for hours. He felt a presence all about an omniscience, looking over him, before long he heard footsteps growing closer. A gunshot rang out and the fox clutched his chest, burying his head into the ground.

"Kitsune!" He heard the shout from inali, followed by the sound of a door striking a wall, and fluttering footsteps.

"Oh god no!" He heard Aide's voice cry out.

"This can't be!" Miken's voice closely followed.

"No no no no no, NO!" Micheal's voice was quivering.

"Nooooo!" Hunter's cries seemed farther off.

"Adrian! Adrian!, no fuck no!" Micah's call seemed the furthest.

"...." A quivering breathe, which Kitsune thought may be his own was the last thing he heard before hearing a pumping heart beat grow faster, and faster, and then so very suddenly stop.

"Sound sound sound! Sound all around!" The fox quivered and cried drawing blood from his ears "Make it stop! Please stop! No more no more!....I can't handle it...no more".

A soft sound, unexpected but calming pushed out all other sounds. It rang out, Ooooooouuuuummmmm, Oooooooouuuuummm.

The fox stood slowly, blood dripping from his crimson body, his form smaller, he felt as if a child as he looked up past a stool to a rope noose hanging from his ceiling. His old room smelled quaint and he could feel fresh tears on his cheek. He didn't hesitate to move himself up the stool sliding his slender neck through the abrasive noose, scratching at his fur and soft skin underneath. He tightened it, felt it begin to choke him, but he did not struggle, taking his feet and kicking at the stool, he fell quick but his neck did not break, he could feel it stay resilient.

He began to feel his air leave and his head grow light, all things growing blurry and black. Dark fog began to flow deep into his room, two beaming red eyes stared back at him as he flailed quickly. A figure began to form from the dark smoke. It was no animal he had ever laid eyes upon. It's features were slight, and it wore a black robe, it's hands black and rough looking. It had only fur atop its head and pale skin, and eyes holding nothing but sorrow, as it reached its hand towards him.

He felt himself grow weak and slowly slip from the noose, looking up to it he saw red stained it's bottom and a drop fell to his eyes, he did not blink as he saw the dark figure tower over him and grasp about his neck drawing itself close. He felt all things leaving him before everything broke apart. All the images in his head exploded into a brilliant radiant mix of color that became an armada of fluttering butterflies, and a crimson red sky, atop a sterile white building, and a panther looking with a horrified grimace is the only thing he could see afterwards.

He felt his feet; his bare cold feet; standing, and his paws were grasped to his chest, where a crimson liquid was covering over the fingers, and stained his once beautiful black dress. His teeth gritted and he growled out and began to take off in a sprint. Behind him Inali had just breached through the door onto the rough looking in a mixture of horror and surprise as he saw the Vulpin galloping like lightening across the rooftop.

The panther's horrified grimace switch to one of horror as the bloodied fox came upon him. He pointed the gun out but was too slow, Kitsune grasped at his wrist and bit into it with a feral rage, drawing blood. Jerry screamed out as Kitsune pulled off then quickly put all his weight into pushing the feline, only to have his own arms grabbed, the two fell from the building onto a rafter just below, where glass work was being done. They both fell to it and Kitsune got up quickly feeling as if all control had ran away from his body, only able to watch his actions. As he looked upon Jerry he saw red smoke seemingly rising from his body, and his own seemed to radiate, a mix of black and white, fluttering quickly all about.

He wanted to stop himself from his next course of action but it was too late his clutched fist came down hard upon the panther. He could feel the creatures pain and it did nothing to stop his next strike, it just made him smile. He felt crazed, but couldn't stop himself. Fist, followed by fist, before long he lost all control, as his claws began to scratch deep into the creature. His paws flaying about as if fighting a predator. Little had the fox known the rope was beginning to give way to his exertion. It gave a quick rip, and his body instinctively went backwards grasping onto the now hanging rope, the platform gone diagonol, and Jerry hanging on to a piece of it simply by his claws.

The fox's senses came back to him as did control, he saw the smoke leave both their bodies. Jerry was beginning to slip and seemed to be crying muttering something quickly. The fox held out his paw to the feline. Kitsune could see that Jerry was scared to take it and hesitated just as he went for it, the platform began to jerk, and as there fingers neared the last two ropes snapped and both furs began to plummet for the ground. Flailing through the air Kitsune felt nothing but fear clutching at his body, tears began to flow from his eyes as he felt the force of air jerking about himself.

From off in the distance Hunter, Micheals, Miken, Aide, and Micah all watched in horror as they saw the fox falling through the air. Inali stared down from the roof his paws outstretched and a scream following forth. Off in the distance of the courtyard Micah was on his knees and, paws grasping at his head. The sky of red was beginning to be eclipsed by clouds of dark. Kitsune felt his body strike the earth, bounce up for a moment and then land once more. The force was null, painless, he knew it hurt but couldn't feel it. He looked up into the sky, his eyes blank, his chest unmoving. No heart beat following. His breathe, gone.

There was an air of death flowing viciously throughout the campus. Time itself had stalled, forgetting to move. Kitsune wasn't sure what had happened. Had he died before, or did he live for just a bit longer and now this would be his resting place.

'if so wouldn't I stop thinking...is Jerry okay...Why'd I lose all control' thought the fox.

He could hear something, off in the distance, not quite footsteps, but rather as if a humming birds fluttering. A shadow seemed to cover him, and then suddenly into his eyes sight came the dark figure once more, with beaming red eyes.

'surely, this man is death, come to take me to my hell' thought the fox. Watching the creature walking down from the heavens, to step in front of him.

'WHO are you' thought the fox.

"Questions will be answered" The figure's voice came from pale lips, with a soft sweet tone, one that was eerie and confusing to the canid, it was unfitting death in his opinion.

'Am I dead?' thought the fox.

"I have come to take your soul" The figure reached to the fox offering a hand and the fox took it, lifting himself up. He gave a frightened jump, for as he looked down their lie his body. Lifeless, and now as he looked upon it pale and sad, dead.

"Oh...." The fox felt air leave his lungs, he wanted so badly to jump back into his body, but some odd feeling made him see it as a waste of time.

"Come" the sweet voice called to him, waving a hand, ripples formed through the air after each movement of the dark paws.

The world began to evaporate all about him, and made him feel sick and queesy. Darkness was all that was left, but it felt, full. As if, though he could no longer see it, he still stood upon grass, and beside him was that same white building. He blinked his eyes in hopes of seeing death once more, but he couldn't see the odd creature. He heard the calming sound once more; Oooooooummmmmm, it called out and he turned to see what it could be. Everything was suddenly covered in a pearly white and behind him stood an equally as curious a creature. He stood taller than the fox, with vibrant blue hair, and glowing skin, and brilliant eyes. His ears stuck out long to the sides of his head but were made of flesh, his entire body was flesh save for his hair.

He wore naught but white cloth about his body but slowly clothing began to form all around him from the cloth before it disappeared. His hands bore gauntlets of dark steel, over his shoulders slinked a long blue cloak and undearneath he was wearing a leather jerkin and black pants and heavy looking boots, at his waist was sheathed a sword. Something about this anomaly seemed, powerful. He radiated a commanding force.

Everything about the world hummed to the man whose silent eyes bore into the canid, who felt fear, and submission towards this odd monstrosity before him.

"God?" Asked the fox confused "are...you...Our creator?"

"...You" It said in a soft young voice, uncaring of the young man's questions "I remember you so long ago..."

"Wha..."

"Before I purged the corruption, I remember you...I sat upon a stone in thought and-"

Kitsune was really feeling unstable hearing this odd "Human" or whatever it was ramble, it seemed to barely aknowledge he was there. He was too horrified to listen to this, he felt like his mind was in thousands of different places, and nothing was slow enough for him to concentrate on.

"-You approached me, with a flower in your maw, a Beautiful Dahlia-"

'if this is god, he sure is a jerk...I don't remember ever meetin...hmmm, but he does seem, familiar. His voice, seems oddly memorable ...' Thought Kitsune looking over this man.

"-I took it and you licked my hand, even as I concidered destroying everything...What happened to that demenor?"

"Wha?"

"well...You're dead...does that make you happy?" The man's voice was so gentle, so peaceful it made the fox uneased "For what did you feel you were to do with life? This should be a calming respite."

"I-"

"And the panther, Do you hope he dies?"

"I didn't mean to-"

"It doesn't matter..."

"What! What do you mean it doesn't matter" Kitsune felt anger rising in him and he stomped his foot paw down "Everyones life matters! It's never the right thing for someone to just die".

"I'm glad you see that" God gave a smile as a beautiful blue light radiated from him "I am not god".

"B-but you-"

"No no no, I am dead I'm afraid" Laughed the god "I am...well that's pointless...do you want to die?"

"I-I....of course not"

"You've wanted a release from your pain..."

"B-but..."

"Well regardless, I grant you one question, it's the least I can do for you" Smiled the odd man.

Kitsune didn't know what to make of this man. He claimed not to be a god, yet everything within the animal told him to believe otherwise. He seemed so essentric, unable to concentrate upon the fox's eyes. He was confusing the creature, almost toying with the fox. He was too uneasy to understand the man. Worse so, to be asked one question, he didn't know what to ask.

"Am I dead? Is this...the afterlife?"

"Yes....and no" The man decided to shake it's head and nod all at the same time, before holding out a flat palm outward "You are right now, laying down in grass, as doctors gather up your nigh dead, corpse, along with Jerry's. You have a slight heart beat...and You have a lot of friends, fighting to see you. All of them are crying, most certain your dead, others arguing that it can not be true...Poor Jerry, No one is fighting to see him".

"...What's going to happen?"

"No doubt you're going to die of blood loss from your wound, and Jerry will die two days from now for unknown reasons" The man sighed and had a far off look of sorrow "So many die..."

"I don't want to die!" Kitsune dropped to his knees gripping at the sides of his head "...I was shot...I was certain I-"

"Hmm?" The ears of the man twitched "You're not dying".

"You jus-"

"Excuse me" The man said waving his hand, suddenly in a different voice.

"What?"

"Kitsune! Kitsune!" this time a woman's voice.

"Get him into the E.R.!" a deeper voice followed.

"His pulse is weakening!" Cried another woman's voice. The man had vanished and Kitsune found himself once more in darkness.

"Kit kit!" a Male voice came along "Get up man, come on, come on!"

"Get them out of here!" The deep voice screamed.

"Let me see my son! LET ME SEE HIM"

so many distressed voices were crying out. The lone animal felt a tear rolling down his cheek, as the darkness around him swallowed him whole, one last voice cried out.

"Please, please, don't leave me...." he couldn't make out anything but the words, and felt a paw upon his. A bright light shown and blinded the animal and his consciousness vanished.

*** (The Next morning, at 9Am)

The sterile white hospital room was depressing. Not having any bit of imagery save for blinding light flowing from the single window in the room. Bandages were covering his body and his leg lifted into the air. The black feline had no emotion on his face as he recollected what put him in such a state. The image of the very person he shot, lifting out a paw to try and help him. He wasn't sure if it was his own emotions making him feel like shit, or maybe his state, or even possibly the drugs.

He stared at the wall and looked around. A white cat, wearing green nurse's scrubs walked in and looked over the clipboard at the edge of his bed. Jerry's ears perked and he looked to the nurse curiously.

"A-are there any visitor's for me?" He asked in hope.

"I'm afraid no one has asked to see you yet" The nurse said.

"Oh...okay" He said looking down feeling it was possible no one wanted to ever see him again, he felt like a monster. Stitches covered his face, and bruises were around his eyes. He was angry, he felt like the entire world was trying to take him out.

"Is there anything I can ge-"

"No" He said abruptly "I want to be alone..."

"Okay.." She said, and then walked from the room with the clip board in her paws.

He swore he would get the fox back, and at the same time, he knew he shouldn't have shot the gun. The images of the afternoon prior left him weak. He didn't know if he could face his old friends. The door to his room opened slowly but he stared into the blinding light of the mirror, not knowing that it had opened.

"I'm going to Jail..."

"If the fox dies" the voice of Mark said, as the tiger stood in the door way.

"Mark!" Gasped the panther waving his one good paw to the other feline "Man, I was jus' about ta' visit ya', where tha' fuck ave' you been?"

"In a relationship, working in law, you knew I became a lawyer" Mark said "I see you're still, holding up the...old club"

"For you man, for you"

"I didn't want things like this to happen" Mark shook his head "Not after what happened to me"

"Na', dude I fuckin' took care of shit, I knew what I was doin', learned from you dude. Come on you hate the homo's as much as me".

The tiger stayed silent in reply as soft padded footsteps could be heard, Thomas walked through the door way and placed a paw on Mark's shoulder. The tiger gave a smile to the fox, and then looked to Jerry. The panther was confused and Jerked his paw forward.

"What the fuck!" He swore "That's the fucker who broke your arm! That bastard, is the one who got you in so much trouble!"

"I got myself in trouble!" Mark rebuked Jerry's words "When I hurt myself, he was the only fur who visited! He was the only person who gave me the time of day, damn it...I fell in love with him. I realized that, petty hatred, jealous, and silly differences, aren't worth it".

"Exactly" Thomas said pressing his lips into Mark's and pulling off, to peck at his lips "Mark cares about you...you could've died, and would've deserved it too!"

"Mark do you hear this fucker!?"

"Listen to yourself! You act like that fox, did something to you!" Mark said shaking his head in disgust.

"Look at me!"

"You shot him!" Mark slammed his fist into his own paw "If that guy lives, you owe him your life damn it!"

"I don't owe him shit, that's a mother fuckin' homo!"

"So the fuck am I!" Mark said crossing closer to Jerry "Look you've got to get over what happened with your father".

Jerry bit his lip and turned his head quickly back to the window, his face contorting and his eyes clutched shut.

"Leave" he growled "I don't want to see you".

"I realize, you are your mother had to go through a lot but-"

"I don't need to hear this!!" Roared the panther.

"-Your dad did exactly what I did, sought a fake life because he was scared of what he'd be seen as and-"

"I am not listening!" shouted Jerry. He felt Mark's paw land on his shoulder.

"Your dad is a bad person for doing that to you..." Mark said sincerley "You had to grow up way too fast. You had to take care of your poor mother. While your dad went about and sought life with a man..."

"Sh-shut up" Jerry whimpered tears welling up around his eyes.

"Not every Homosexual man, is your father" Mark commented rubbing Jerry's shoulder "...You used to look up to me...but, making violence won't fix what happened to you. You need to-"

"I don't want to" Gasped Jerry still looking away.

"Look man, Just...think on it a little okay?"

"..."

"Bye dude...You're still religious right?"

"Huh...kinda...I still go to church for my mom..." Jerry said quietly.

"Pray for Kitsune"

"...I hope he lives" Jerry Muttered.

"That's good-"

"So I can pay him back..." Jerry said with poison on his tongue. Mark sighed and left the room, Thomas hesitated looking over the bandaged feline giving a sorrow filled frown.

The room felt emptier than it had, previously. Jerry felt alone, not just in the room, but everywhere. The world felt empty to him. There was a knock upon the door, and Jerry looked back to it.

"Who is it?" He called hoarsly.

"Jay" called the voice.

"...What the fuck do you want?"

"Just to talk..."

"Come in"

Jayson opened the door and strode into the room, holding a basket with chocolates, and a single card.

"What the hell" Jerry shook his head "Everyone's all gay now".

"This isn't from me" Jayson said "Mark wanted me to put it in here, he said he felt like he upset you".

"He did...don't you fuckin' hate me now or something?"

"Yeah" Jayson said giving a blank expression "But you used to be my friend".

"What ever" Jerry sighed "Put the queer's basket down wherever and leave."

"When will they let you out?"

"So you can beat me too?"

"Just wondering?" Jayson said sitting down in a chair near the bed.

"Don't know...the fall broke a lot of the bones in my leg" Jerry said "Doctor's said I was lucky to be alive".

"You fell off of a building" Jayson said nodding "Sounds about right".

"...Said I almost bled to death" Jerry shook his head.

"What happened" Jayson asked.

"You don't want to hear it"

"I do"

"...I...I attacked the festival, like we do everytime, except this time I had the guys attack people instead of the floats" Jerry said "I ran to our meeting point only to find out that Fag, friend of yours was following me...I had a gun with me...just to kinda scare people, and he wouldn't stop...so I shot...but I missed...well I hit but I didn't mean to...I just-"

"Got scared"

"I'm not scared of any faggot!" Jerry shouted "...and he bled, I saw him, he began to shake and then he went so very still...I was scared I had killed him, but then he fell onto his paws and knees, coughing out blood, it was just a few moments, but, he stood and looked to his paws and then at me. He charged at me, and from there things got blurry, it was like being attacked by a feral ancestor...like a domestic dog or something, he just...bit my arm and pushed me off the building. I grabbed onto him and he fell with me onto a...window thing....and he began to attack me their..."

"Damn..." Jayson said half smiling, and stopping quickly.

"He wasn't using fists after awhile, he started plunge his claws into me, the thing's ropes started breaking and we fell....In mid air, I looked out, and was so scared, I saw him however...He fell faster. I saw his body hit the ground and knew I was next, he landed on his neck...in just that moment I realized, that the entire day was a mistake"

"Took ya' long enough"

"Fuck you" Jerry said "Now...he's probably going to die, and it won't matter when I heal because I'm gonna get put to sleep for murder".

"....Why'd you do it?"

"..."

"Okay whatever" Jayson said standing up and readying to leave the room "Get well soon..."

"I thought that fox was your friend why are you coming in here?"

"You used to be my friend...and, I figured maybe you changed" Jayson Shrugged "Maybe seeing that Hate just breeds Sadness...Kit told me that one a long long time ago".

"Fuck that" Jerry said.

"Okay..." Jayson said as he turned and made his way for the door. His paw was on the handle before he could turn it Jerry's voice rang out.

"Is the fox okay?"

"They don't know" Jayson shook his head "No one's allowed in the room, they have him under constant watch, to see if he wakes up".

"I see..." Jerry said closing his eyes.

"Seeya" Jayson said "not to be mean...but you should feel like shit"

"I do" Jerry said quickly in response. The panther rested his head into his shoulder, the blinding beam from the sun burning into his eyes, as if attacking him, as if rubbing salt through his wounded face. He didn't fight it, maybe it would kill him before his actions could break his mother's heart.

He looked to the book resting on a stand beside his hospital bed. The religious text of his beliefs, stared him in the eyes. It like the sun seemed to try and make his eyes cry. Sadly for the book tears had already begun rolling down the man's cheeks, and he continued to stare, feeling a dark depression begin to wrap all around him. His hospital room felt more like a cell of a man awaiting his last moments.

*** (1 hour later)

Kitsune opened his eyes to a pearly whiteness, he felt blind and his breathing was slow. His vision was blurry and a brilliant piercing light was drilling its way through his head. There was a quick voice spoken in the background and he saw shapes moving across the white wall. The fox shook his head and pulled his paws up to look at them. They moved around with his motions as if they were his own paws, but he was certain he was dead.

He blinked a couple of times to try and get his vision back but it seemed difficult, he was racking his brain and something in the back of his head felt so pressing but he wasn't sure what. He looked about his surroundings now that his vision was fine, and clear. He found himself in a hospital bed, alone, he still felt confused and lost.

"Why am I in a hospital bed" The fox asked himself, looking down "Where, is the blue man?"

A keening sound cut through his head and he clutched his paws up to his ears, holding his head tight, his eyes clutched close in agitation. He heard the door open, and a crowd of furs all seemed to be standing their. His father at the front, his eyes tired, as if he'd been up for days. Aide had a tissue up to her eye lids as if whiping something off. Micah had a smile and a look of disbelief. Hunter was looking curiously past everyone directly into Kitsune's eyes. Jayson was in the back looking about and saying something Kitsune was unable to hear. Micheals seemed to be talking frantically with a doctor just outside the door.

Miken was clapping her paws together in excitement. Kitsune could barely make out the tips of the heads of Tyler and Jessica, the bunnies ears perked up as if happy about something. As he saw the group beginning to make there way for him he saw inali, who had a look of exstacy upon his face as he looked over the vulpine. Just as he noticed the man everything hit him. Kitsune began to whimper and felt tears moving down his eyes, his body shaking and shivering. He remembered what happened, everything, it hit him like a brick wall.

Every moment, every feeling, every single drop of blood. His heart raced and he felt himself slowly losing his structure.

All of his feeling came back to him in a flash, and he could hear the busy sounds of the hospital, and all of the exstatic mutterings of the furs in his room. They rushed over, and Kitsune moved forward and clutched the first one he could. Hunter in his grasp he pressed his face into his stomach feeling his tears roll free.

"I'm alive I'm alive!" Shouted the stunned animal. He could feel his paw rub softly down the back of his head.

"I-I thought I died! I saw death...." The fox's voice quivered quickly.

As he finished crying he pulled off of Hunter and looked around biting his lower lip.

"S-so...h-happy, I'm so-so happy, to see all of you again!" Kitsune said quickly "Dad...oh dad, I'm so sorry, p-please I-I".

Raynard made his way over and pressed a paw over his son's cheek giving out a sigh, his eyes red, as if agitated from tears.

"Don't. You're alive, that's all that matters"

"I-I was angry, I couldn't control myself...I didn't mean to kill him!"

"uh-" Jayson Interjected from the background. Kitsune perked his head past his father to look at the wolf.

"He didn't die" Jayson said.

"O-oh..." Kitsune said taking in the words and biting his lip again "I'm so happy".

"Happy!?" Micah shouted "We should fuckin' go over to his room right fuckin' now, and smash his face in!"

nali stayed silent in the background, and opened his mouth to talk, before he could however a deer walked into the room, holding out a clipboard, she was obviously a doctor, she perched her glasses over her nose, and gave a smile to the fox after parting the ocean of people in the way.

"So happy to see you awake, Mister Adrian" after hearing the doctor some of the furs seemed confused and looked questioningly to Kitsune "We didn't know if you'd make it, You see, you lapsed into a coma, after we stopped your bleeding. Your friends refused to let you be in this room alone, they've all been waiting outside the door".

"Thank you all" Kitsune said past the doctor "...it means so much".

"There was a tiger and a fox but, the tiger seemed to have an episode and had to leave" The doctor had begun to ramble and Kitsune wasn't sure who she was talking about "Anyways, -"

"When can I get up?"

"Hold your horses now, ya' gotta hold on"

"I wanna see Jerry" Kitsune said driven by an unconcious desire, to actually see the panther "I'm just going to be a second-"

"Look you really can't do tha-"

It was too late Kitsune had begun to pull the wires off of his body and went to step from the bed. As his foot met the ground he pushed out to land upon it, and found it did not desire to hold his weight. His body slipped and he fell hitting his cheek against the ground.

"You really shouldn't be doing-"

itsune had begun to push himself up, and Raynard and Inali helped place him back onto his feet. The fox steadied himself and placed a paw to his head, he attampted to balance, as the deer began to say something about safety and regulations but Kitsune had not an actual desire to listen. Once he was sure he could stand, he began to walk towards the door, and looked to Jayson.

"Where's Jerry at?" Kitsune Asked blinking and taking in a deep breathe.

"Just down the hall last room on the left" Jayson said flicking a finger towards the door.

"Look, I'm going to call security if you don't get back in the bed, there are proceedures and-" The deer was frantic.

"Give the kid a break" Inali said moving to the deer "He almost died, let him do the one thing he wants to".

"I can't just let him go in there-"

"It's not like he has the strength to hurt Jerry" Shrugged Micheals from the background which received a nod from Hunter.

"Yeah, His arms couldn't muster enough strength to hurt a feral mouse" Hunter said waving a paw around.

"I'm so glad he's okay" Aide said with a paw to her chest "I was so sure that the gunshot-"

"Yeah, I think we all did" Inali said. Jessica and Tyler were hugging each other close and whispering something to one another.

Kitsune found himself pushing through the door, and nearly following as his arms forced the door open with all his strength, he looked in to only see a huddled mass of bandages and some black and blue fur.

"Pssst!" Kitsune said in a whisper "Are you awake".

"H-huh?" Jerry jerked and gave a sniff, and began to turn around. He stared at Kitsune for a moment and his eyes widened. The fox seemed perfectly fine, there was a bandage that could be seen were the hospital robe didn't cover but otherwise, he seemed fine. No brace over his neck, pathces of fur missing, his eyes seemed vibrant and life filled. Jerry felt relieved, Jealous and angry all at the same time.

"I just wanted to see if you were okay" Kitsune said not sure why he didn't just dash over and bite the bastard.

"Y-yeah, an-and lookat' you"

"I'm a resilient faggot" Kitsune said forcing a smile.

"Yeah, I know" Jerry said weakly "Why tha' fuck are you here? To rub my nose in this?"

"No" The fox blinked and took a breath "I wanted to apologize".

"I shot you..."

"I know but...we both could have died"

"Look man, I don't give a damn bout' your faggotry, I jus' wanna be left alone, so go press your charges, I ain't got nothing to say you wanna hear, so why don't you go tell em' ta' gimme the chair or what the fuck ever"

"W-well, actually" Kitsune said crossing the room softly, and as he did Jerry began to retreat as best he could "I was wondering if maybe...I wouldn't press charges...."

"Your out of your fuckin' head, you musta' suffered a brain injury, I shot your ass"

"I tackled you off of a building"

"Pushed..."

"Huh?"

"You pushed me off the building, I grabbed you"

"Oh? I wasn't all that conscious really" Kitsune said waving his paw around "I was thinking maybe instead...you could disband your group...maybe invite them to the last GLS meeting..."

"Kid, they'll fuckin' maul you"

"Not if you tell them not to" Kitsune said twitching his ears. Jerry could see the huddled bunch of furs waiting outside his door talking and peering in past the back of the fox.

"I'm not a homo sympathizer..." Jerry said "I hate what you are...and don't you forget it!"

"I just thought maybe if I was nice you'd-"

"Forget that fuckin' nonsense! You shouldn't have cried when I attacked you that day by the tree, you shoulda' smashed my face in" Jerry grunted "But you rolled right over, what the fuck is your problem"

"I could ask you the same" Kitsune said.

"I jus' don't get it, I already beat you once, then I shoot you, and you still try an' leave me alone" Jerry began to feel uneased "So I'mma tell you what the fuck ta' do, go tell tha' muther fuckin' police officer when he comes to your room that I'm a fuckin' loser, and that he should lock my ass up till one day they put thousands a volts in me, because that's what I deserve".

"Come on, if you just-"

"What's your deal! Get the fuck out of my room! I don't want to ever see you again! What do you want from me!?"

"I'm sorry for attacking you..."

"Yeah well....get the fuck out" Jerry's eyes had water beginning to form, and he quickly looked away, hurting his broken and bruised body.

"Kay', bye then"

Kitsune's words were replied with a barbaric grunt and a huff of air. The fox moved out of the room with a sad look upon his face but as he saw his friends he allowed it to brighten up to a smile. They all walked him back to his room, and he layed back in the bed. He had quickly realized, that he was naked save for the ridiculous white apron-like cloth around his body.

"Ho-how are you so calm?" Hunter asked sitting in the chair beside Kitsune's bed, as the fox began to pull off the apron whilst under the covers. He looked down at his chest, not ignoring Hunter's words but rather curious of the gunshot. There it was staring back him, a white patch in the dead center of his chest, a small patch of blood in the middle.

"I don't know" Kitsune said trying not to think too much on it "Just happy to be alive really. I was told I would die of blood loss".

"By who?" Micah's voice pierced to Kitsune from the bottom of the fox's bed.

"Th-the....hmmm"

"What?"

"Well, I don't know really...death came and took my paw, he led me to a....place" Kitsune waved his paw a bit "And...god, or something, a strange human like creature with a blue light shining all around him, he had a sword at his side, and long blue hair, and he talked to me about how I had given him a flower or something before he destroyed the world".

"Probably delusion caused by stress" Micheals said standing by the door "or maybe when you hit your head, you may have hit a nerve and whilst in your coma you had this imaginatory experience".

"It was so vivid" Kitsune said.

"I believe him" Raynard said nodding his head "Perhaps it WAS god".

"I called him that but he got upset by the mention saying that he was dead" Kitsune said shrugging.

"It's a delusion sweetie it doesn't need to make sense" Aide said.

"Yeah..." Kitsune sighed unsure if it was just a dream, or if it really happened.

"It's okay" Tyler said "You should write about it...You should write about the entire experience. It's unique".

"Eh...well I'm not so worried about much anymore..."

"What do you-" Inali was going to talk but was interupted when a ferret wearing a suit with his hair moved back, carrying a note pad, walked into the room.

"Adrian Dahlia?" The man said pointing to Kitsune.

"That's me"

"I'm the Orator and scribe, of the police department" The ferret said. The Orator of the police, meant that he was much like a counselour, used for talking down suicide victims and interegatting witnesses. Scribe was a cute word for the guy who's got to write everything down.

"What a lucky and rewarding job you must have" Smiled the fox giving a giggle.

"At least you have a sense of humor" Replied the ferret plainly "But I find my job plenty easy, and that is reward enough. Can I get you to tell me what happened on the roof."

"Well..." Kitsune said thinking on the question "Jerry shot at me, after I chased him, and I tackled him from the roof, and began to attack him, we fell off a...thingy, and woooooosh, smash boom, we hit the ground, and here I am before you, a day later still slightly disoriented and wobbly".

"....okay, slow down"

Kitsune didn't realize he rushed that quickly through it but he didn't much care to busy himself with random furs who wanted to ask him things.

"So, he shot you?"

"Yessir"

"Alright, and do you want to press charges on the attempted murder?"

"He wasn't trying to murder me" Kitsune said shrugging.

"Now hold on a damn minute!" Inali shouted.

"Hell yeah!" Micah said stomping his foot to the ground.

"People I just want to hear Mr. Dahlia's words. Sir would you say you're of sound judgement?"

"Yessir" Nodded Kitsune.

"Son-" Raynard began to speak, Kitsune's ear flicked and he turned to his father "Alright...if you know what you're doing".

"He shot at me yes, but I know he wasn't trying to shoot me"

"How do you know?"

"I saw his face" Kitsune said "It was the only thing I saw, he looked surprised and horrified it had happened".

"I was told he attacked the float" The ferret said.

"He did, but as far as I remember he failed to strike anyone but me"

"And?"

"Oh, he meant to do that" Kitsune said.

"So?"

"Huh? I thrashed his face and pushed him off of a building, if someone else wants to press charges, I'm content...I doubt he'll ever look the same"

"And if he shoots you again"

"He'd better hope I die" Kitsune replied with a giggle and a smile.

"....Alright" The ferret scribbled down some things on his note pad and held out a paw "My name is Detective, Lastard if you feel like you change your mind you have two days to collect your thoughts on the issue, just call the department and ask for me".

"Thank you" Kitsune said regarding the officer with a smile.

"...you're an idiot" Micah said.

"Hey now!" Aide called out.

"A man shoots you and you just roll over and-" Hunter went to speak but Kitsune raised his paw inot the air.

"I don't have time for court, and all of that nonsense...I need to do my best so maybe the college will concider me for free tuition next year because I won't be able to afford it" Kitsune said "I don't have time for all of this, he got what he deserves".

"He deserves to die"

"He didn't kill anyone" Kitsune replied. The other furs went silent at the remark.

"Hey!" The squeeling highpitched voice came from the bunny in the corner tugging on the cougar's sleeve "Tell him, tell him!"

"Come on hun, at least let him be on his paws again" Tyler commented.

"Come on baby, it'll make his day"

"Alright" The cougar said blushing and making his way bed side.

"What is it?" Kitsune looked up with curiousity.

"Well, after reviewing your academics, in the field of writing and english, and reading the story sent in by an anonymous person, I've decided that as my publisher likes to grant scholarships to one student who strives for perfection in their writing, it is my honor to grant you the Liliam bernard publishing company scholarship...that includes your tuition and also any book fees incured next year of schoo-"

Before the feline could finish, Kitsune had wrapped his arms around the cougar's neck and brought him into a kiss, and release quickly hugging himself to the cougar's chest.

"HEY!" Jessica screeched out "That's mine!"

"I-I didn't do it" The cougar was shaking and concerned, however Kitsune was locked in excitement at the news.

"Oh! I'm alive! And I get to go to classes next year, and and and all my friends are here, Ooooh, thank you thank you!"

"Yeah, well you earned it" Tyler replied, Jessica still huffing and puffing in the corner.

"Who sent it in, and what story was it?"

"Oh...yeah that's right, it was the opening few chapter of a story called "F.U." Tyler said "It was sent a few months ago, don't know who really. IT was about a young fox who was leaving home from his mother to go to college with his friends, it follows his hard ship trying to keep himself together and take care of a fairly unsuccessful relationship. I'd like to read it all when it's finished".

"Oh..." Kitsune said "Ummm".

"What is it?"

"I didn't think it was all that great" Kitsune said.

"It has a lot of potential. Very vivid and believable" Tyler said.

Kitsune smiled to the cougar and closed his eyes and stretched out on the bed.

"Look let's leave him to get some sleep" Hunter said "He looks worn out".

"Scared if I let you go to sleep you won't wake" Inali said.

"We all are" Raynard replied "You get some rest son, I'm gonna wait out there, I'll give you a ride once you're all set, call your mom and tell her things are okay".

"Thanks dad" Whispered Kitsune smiling.

The fox leaned into the pillow he wasn't sure how long he had been up but he was so tired. The back of his eyes lids were so very very dark, but his mind was alight with a burning fire. A sonata began to orchestrate itself inside of his head and he felt at peace, no darkness would creep into his mind, not today. He could feel the warmth of the sun heat his cheek. Outside the sun was bright, though it was winter the weather was beautiful and warm, and just outside of the hospital a lone white wolf stared up at it, his tail still and his paws deep in his pocket, his face slowly moving down to the ground and a deep sigh following before he turned around and walked away down the sidewalk.