Realm-sleep...
Realm-sleep...
As seen before, I wake in dreams to a very familiar door
The handle broken, handle laying on the floor
A cold breeze felt from the other side
A feeling I forget from time to time chills memories I try to hide
Wooden with wear shown, seeming sturdy still
It brings me moments on a path with dreams I can no longer fulfill
As I walk back, the door creaks open with every step taken
Never turning my back, I see shadows gathering, with twisting smiles of happiness mistaken
It seems my nightmares from dreams are about to make themselves clear
As I stop in place, I see among the dark, darker shadows waiting for a glimpse of fear
I take breath heavily as my stomache begins to turn
Their intent filled stares never wavering on me slowly begin to burn
A feel a wall behind me as the door opens complete, no place left to go
The motions they make are precise, my exit nowhere to be seen...they must know
With each blink they near, ever more fill the room till they could touch my being
Aggressive with my sight, I think back to what I'm really seeing
Each taking me down a road I left for good reason, making me see what I could never guarantee would of been
With flashes of those who could say no more, I see what never will be from then
Even still, these outcomes, this possible regret fills my every vain
Some showing my worst worry, giving me the most heart-filled pain...
As each takes me to the places I try to avoid in thought
I stagger among those times I hadn't fought
My reasons, my choices, chance
They show all to eyes unbarring of self-doubt at a glance
Eyes held open, I hold together my breaking sanity
Trying to remember why I still move on, ...my humanity...
Slowly this eternity takes pieces & throws them into the room that harbors this conscious beast
Saving all they can of a troubled man, waiting till there's no more left for the feast
Stunned with self-doubt, sounds of those I help echo among the horrid silence that surrounds what has always remained
Part of a thought that grows from nothing gained
Something bellowing among still places
Something with no name, from no hellish reality or heavenly graces
The door moving back & forth now slowly gaining strength
It has & always will survive, far beyond my own life's length
As it shows more, the shadows begin to back into the room once more
As the last leaves it's mark, slowly something begins to close the door...
I look again only seeing a shell of what was my reflection
As I stare into the broken handle hole, I see... me... wandering about with no direction
I lock eyes with it, as it stares with no shadows behind
It's become numb to them, it is, they are all in its mind
The eyes show only a smile chilling to define
It's familiar...it's mine...
It fades into darkness, again waving not a bye, but a "see you tomorrow"
As I close my eyes, I feel a sickly slumber overwhelm me...
I shake awake, checking the time....5 minutes past....it seems I still have much time to borrow
Broken, burdened, beginning to need the rest...
I close my eyes again, settling in, knowing I quietly give another try for a piece of peace, as I lay in my.....It's nest...
"Sleep a given, time is taken
What we lose is often forgotten as we awaken.."
"The price, no value to place
We show only the cost each day on every face..."
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